Dear onlyup,
youi have encouraged me much through some of the hardest days I have had in the last few months. You are a good person. If your kids can't see that, then they are losing out. I am sorry you are so alone. Take it one day at a time. Thankd God there are only 24 hrs in a day. (I do on some days.) I pray you feel better and thanks for being a good friend and encourager to me. :)

I hope you made it to your meeting.
When we feel alone, and our kids are being their usual selfish selves, it is up to us to remember that the kids are comfortable, we might not be, and we can help ourselves by treating our selves special, as an individual.
When I stop and take a moment for me, I think of things I do as an individual, not a mom, not a partner, and it helps me to feel more in control of where I am at.
Hope you are doing better now.

Kids yes they do that. I love them all but they treat those who they love most bad sometimes...they are growing they don't know any better right now. I get tired too. Tired of being abused tired of working on it but I know not to stop trying. Giving up is not an option. Your ancestors worked very hard to make sure their blood has futures. Keep fighting the weariness is normal. Because you have kids you have to show them how to be healthy and never give up. You are their hero even though you wont here the words until you are really old. I hope you went to class. Allow yourself to have the feelings but journal them. Hang in there friend good days will come.