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No more patience

Novy
Novy

I cant take this shit anymore. I cut today over 30 times and my leg is numb. I want normal again and I want these thoughts, images in my head to go away. I dream about bad things and I feel scared all the time. I'm always alone and I feel so pathetic and shameful. Suicide thoughts are always on my mind and cant rid of them I'm tired. I just want to drink myself to sleep with sleeping pills. 



I'm sorry about this but I have to write it. I'm fucking pathetic and I hate myself 

arfie
arfie
Glad you felt safe to write about it here, Novy. Sorry and pathetic, it is, but hating a person -even myself- for being in pain is somewhere between counter-productive and cruel. The more pathetic the pain, the less sense it makes to abuse the sufferer, even when the sufferer is perfect li'l ol' me.

Listening, just in case you feel like sharing the details. . .

Caring, whether you share or knot.
STRAWS
STRAWS
Novy I can understand what you are dealing with, but try to remember you DO NOT WANT TO KILL YOURSELF. You just want to kill the pain. Hang in there, please.
EvergreenDreamer
EvergreenDreamer
Hi novy. Kudos on the good self care, purging those feelings here. I hope you will continue to do that for yourself. Triple hugs of support
Novy
Novy
Thanks for the support. It means a great deal
SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Hey Novy, I hear how helpless and hopeless you are feeling. Can you consider in patient or day hospital at this time? Nobody deserves this much pain. Keep on posting. Verbal vomiting can be a good thing. Showers of comforting hugs.
Novy
Novy
Well I was overwhelmed today and feeling really off and suicidal so I called crisis and they helped a great deal along with you guys help. Still feel pretty bad and embarrassed but for now I'm just going to sleep and I see me family doctor tomorrow. Maby I just need med adjustments who knows.

Thanks guys.
lilmissy7
lilmissy7
I hope the doctor goes well
Sending support & (((hugs))
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