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Night is when all the monsters come out

Alecto
Alecto

i cringe with fear  anger and dread at night only when my husband says cmon its  bedtime 


i get so mad because he snores so peacefully and feel guilty about wanting to shake him awake (which sometimes i nudge him seceretly)


and more guilty over my anger towards him because he is a good man and its not his fault all the monsters come to hurt me anddrag me back to the hell until morning when i finally fall asleep from exhaustion from the battle of being consumed by monsters all around me and in my head.


and they are not the movie monsters like would proably be easier to deal with no these are the referred to as human (although did inhumane unspeakable things) and to make it even worse i dont even get to fight back as the adult i am suppose to be when they show up.


so insominia gives me battle weapons  calleda toshiba laptop headphones with you tube and noe dailt strength.


i cant really refer this as a crisis due to it has been so many xxing years of this going on i dont know what it is.

arfie
arfie
Hello Alecto. Welcome to the forum. Sorry for what brings you here, but glad you are here. Pull up a chair and sit a spell. It sounds like you will fit right in. Yours is a familiar story here and I certainly feel stronger for your affirmation that I am not alone with these kinds of psycho weirds. Sorting through them and making my peace with them one at a time is easier when I am in company that doesn't make me feel like just a freak-a-zoid for not being able to just them away.

Welcome aboard. Hope you find healing companionship here.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Welcome to the board Alecto..... I really struggle with sleep as well and medication does help some

This is a good board with kind and knowledgeable folks.....I'm glad that you found us

Big hug......xo
Alice0
Alice0
That sounds awful. I have a prescription and that's how I sleep. Maybe you could get something to just knock you out so you don't have to lay there and suffer. I used to have insomnia real bad too.

It's not fair that people did unspeakable things to you. And I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad.
Alecto
Alecto
Unfortunately I cant take sleeping medication well let me correct myself I can but it usually has no effect on me due to a I guess you could say medical condition & when a script does some what work I usually wake up after 2 or 3 hours & 8 out of 10 times with nightmares.
Thank You for your suggestion and for actually reading my written thoughts
and understanding but the one thing that is a angry very very angry LOL is the evil people who fu__ed my brain & my life and the people who were suppose to protect me from those evil people (who were to busy getting drunk parting or just didn't care or love me enough to care
HAVE NEVERED APPOLOGIZED TO ME TO THI DAY and are embarrassed of me because of the effects that caused by my brain being fu__ed up but a complete stranger who doesn't even know the depth of it all says
It's not fair that people did unspeakable things to you. And I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad
It makes me laugh and cry at the same time.
THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!.
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