Yes most definitely

Thank you. There seems to be little research on this. However, I found an article on it, and it made things make sooo much sense to me!!!!!!!!!! It was such a relief.

hi, welcome to the group. i have trouble remembering a lot of what happened in my childhood. it seems like most of it is a big blank. for some reason though, my horrors of math remain. the teasing and the bullying that happened, i can remember those parts - sort of - like thru a fog. i know what you mean though about things learned taht are now, just, poof - gone.

i have more of that, that i am aware of from my adult life. i am missing things like from scratch recipes i knew by heart, not written down anywhere - they are gone. just gone. erased, i think. maybe they'll come back to me at some point. it doesn't sound devastating as i type it right now, but there is so much more that went along with, i can sort of tell there was more and there is this big empty place now. when i blanked the horrifying parts all the rest went too. tw,

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the shock that hit when it hit, it took everything else with it from 'then' (different 'thens')

i think we can get some of that back after therapy/working thru the trauma(s) or whatever style/type of therapy work your therapist/dr uses.

i've worked thru a lot here. talking, being more real than i have ever been in my life until here. feeling the most safe ever, feeling safe enough

safe enough is something i learned from reading from www.pete-walker.com

he gives so much for free about growing up in trauma. gentle hugs. here is good.

Welcome. I am good with school things, but not people things. I, like others, don't have a *pre-trauma* existence ot compare to. My default settings even after work an dwork and more work are.... not optimal, let's just say that!

PTSD has wreaked absolute havoc with my memory functions, both short and long term. So much so that memory exercises were one of my earliest therapy tools and have since become an ongoing ritual for me.

Could this be what you speak of?

I have struggled with math since middle school. It just stopped making sense. I don't know what one would consider childhood trauma, but when I was in elementary and middle school, I was abused by someone not worth mentioning at home and then a scapegoat and outcast at school. I spent most of my days alone. I did not get a real friend until seventh grade when I met (I'm going by her nick name) Apolla. (At this time, my mother had just left the abusive relationship and moved to a different state. )

Definitely! I've tried processing why. What I do remember is that things were so rough at home and when I would go to school I would disassociate. I could never fully focus on subjects that didn't come naturally. I still have horrible math anxiety.