are you seeing a psychiatrist or psychologist? a psychiatrist can give you medicine that helps with the panic and anxiety and the psychologist can help with the flashbacks.
I use to see a psychologist and she would tell me ways that can help with flashbacks like ways to ground yourself.
I'm sorry you have a reason to be here but everyone here is really nice and helpful.

Not currently. I'm so busy with school and there.are days I can't even get out of bed so going to an appointment is going to be pretty tough. I used to, though, and was on meds, but stopped going and the prescriptions stopped as well.

Hello..... I am wondering...why did you stop the therapy (or counseling).....and the meds?

I’m so sorry about all this. I too faced my first trauma when I was 14 and am around your age too. However, I never faced flashbacks really, although I used to periodically have “aroma flashbacks” (idk what to call them really) where I would smell a smell related to the trauma that wasn’t really there... thouhg now that I think about it I did used to see a certain image from the trauma in my head over and over but I don’t know if that was a willing sort of thing? Anyway, don’t really get those now, last time was quite awhile ago, now my “reliving” is mostly just getting creeped out/upset when confronted with certain things related to the traumas. So I don’t understand what it’s like to have such terribly awful flashbacks, and I’m very sorry. It sounds terrible. It’s so brave of you to still be here. I hope you’re able to get some help, it sounds downright horrendous what you’re experiencing. You have my prayers, friend. May you find some comfort in that there are others who understand in a way, even if I don’t exactly! I do understand what it’s like to have your life being run by a mental illness, though, and many others do as well. I know our experiences are all different. The thing that helped me make it out alive was my faith, and loved ones. Best wishes to you.

Welcome. I'm fairly new to this site as well and it's helped me out a ton. It's nice to know that there are other people out there who truly understand your pain. I went through my first traumatic experience when I was 3 and the last one I had was around 12. I was formally diagnosed with ptsd when I was 19 and re-diagnosed with c-ptsd jus about 2 months ago.

I know taking medications and going to the doctor is hard. Especially when you're young and you're taking as many pills as your grandparents, but you can only help yourself so much without professionals. PTSD is so complicated, it NEEDS professional help.

Once you start taking the steps to get help, it does get better. And you're already taking a step by logging onto this site and reaching out.

I was abused from age 9, and collapsed in a panic attack and was hospitalized at age 13. I wasn't treated for child abuse in the hospital, though, so I had to live through more of it until I left home for good at age 17. Then at around age 21 all of the abuse I'd been able to hold in deep down surfaced, and I went to my first psychologist for help.

Nobody in my family tree on either side going back generations had ever gone to a psychologist, so they all piled on to call me the crazy one. But in therapy I learned I'd been born into a really dysfunctional family system, one with no boundaries. I was referred from a general psychologist to one who specialized in PTSD because at 13 my collapsing episode had been a sever PTSD panic attack. We got started being very specific about what my symptoms were and what to do about each one. Like this guy Pete Walker's website.
http://pete-walker.com/13StepsManageFlashbacks.htm

So sorry for what brought you here, but glad you were referred to us. I'm just another patient, not a doctor, but that's why as a patient I can say coming here, having a therapist, and having a psychiatrist who has prescribed Prazosin as a med for my nightmares has gotten my life going after it just all collapsed. Much support to you.

Hello Jason. Welcome to the forum. At worst, joining here is not likely to hurt, so whatcha got to lose?

Bed is the worst possible place for me to deal with my own flashbacks. I often think my flashbacks are a sort of dream I have while I am awake and where better to "dream" than in bed? But then, every case of PTSD is unique. Each of us have to find what works for us through a process of trial and error.

Gentle support while you find what works for you, Jason. Hope you find healing companionship here.

Thank you all. It truly means a lot. I stopped therapy because they said I didn't need it anymore or needed the medication anymore. And yeah. I find it hard to get out of bed which is where the trauma happened (witnessed and experienced) so it does make my flashbacks a lot worse

hugs, Jason. i'm sorry they did that. it sounds like they made an error in judgement in your case. as it turns out, it happens with therapists quite a bit if they don't understand trauma well.

we try to find trauma trained therapists as it makes a huge difference in the care a person receives.

i wonder if you might be able to get in to see a dr/psychiatrist in an urgent appointment? i would try to be seen right away and perhaps over the break from school some of this can be under more control for you. what do you think?

i think you are worth it. you are definitely worth it.

Welcome to the board Jason..... When you're able to it might be worth trying to get out to see your doctor again for medication to take when you need it??
It can help a great deal

This is a good board.... I'm sorry for what brought you here but I'm glad that you're here... Gentle hug.....xo

Having trauma affect the place where you're supposed to feel safe and get rest is a bitch. I have a nyctohobia from it.

It definitely sounds like they made an error I'm judgment in regards to your treatment. LillyPotter is right, it's important to find a therapist who specializes in your specific trauma. There's no shame in telling your doctor that you need help again. PTSD can become easier to manage, but it never goes away. So it's CRUCIAL to have a good support system and be proactive.

Hi everyone. Another newbie here. My name is Sayliinah. I have PTSD & night terror's. I am so sorry that you Jason,& everyone else has to be part of such a group, but For us, We are BLESSED that there is such a group. There are modalities that can help along w/meds & counselling such as acupuncture & acupressure. Auricular (ear) acupressure &acupuncture helps. I just do not have the strength right now as I recently had another loss of a child. I am sending you all hugs & kisses for you all gave me a chance to share & not feel too bad about doing so. Thank you for your courage Jasonxoxo