Oh boy. That's a hard situation. HUGS

breathing with you, angela. . .

that's a rude shift, to say the least. hope healing happens here.

breathing with you. . .
deep cleansing breaths. . .

Big hug AJ

I'm sorry that you've been hurt...xo

each moment will get easier as you let this toxic betrayal leave you. God Bless you and keep you, give you peace and loving arms to surround you. We've got you. Bigs hugs of love and support <3

I thought I would never get over the betrayal by my family, but I can tell you that I have and though sometimes it flashed back with he pain it caused...I do not think of it nor the pain unless there is something really big like my recent move taht reminds me.

It's excellent how you're putting support together here to replace the important support that you lost, AJ--that you're reaching out to your shrink plus you're using AA support the way it should be used. Losing that important support would throw anybody for a loop. Sorry the one thing you couldn't do was get a ride to have that mole removed. I'm really hoping you can find somebody who can take you and get that done so you don't worry about its turning cancerous. Sending you support for tonight and tomorrow.

Sometimes it takes time for forgiveness to take place patience is hard. I if there was love and a bind before this then I think all will be healed and forgiven in a little more time your family needs some time to Process and see you acted out if caring and worry

I did not getto get my mole off, now i have to wait until October. Also i waited an hour past my appointmnet at the Surgeons office who i am seeing for my GI Bleed and stomachpain where i cant eat (stress is mking it even worse) it feels like acute gastritisto be honest ,its the srugeon who got the precacnrous polyps out of my colon in February. they rescheduled me first beforethe other 5 or 6 people waiting due to the GI bleed an unable to eat much more than watermelon and my protein shakes, but the surgeon i see was stuck inthe ER with a very severe emergency and rushing to srugery witht eh person, it doesnt look good and he called for the other two surgeons in teh office stat he needed all three of them for the surgery so i am just so grateful that was not me! They told us all it did not look good at all so they had no choice but to cancel us all. So i get the first available appointment which is weds, hes here weds thru friday nromally and other hosptials monday and tuesday. So they got me in for 3pm weds when my fiance gets off work. But waht do i do until then? My fiance is baking chicken drumsticks and keeping it bland and some rice trying to see if i can eat something. I am trying to force food in me even though i end up onthe toilet forever after even with my lomotil, well i force it once matts home. Seems the only time i can eat more than watermelon though is at night after i take my sleeping meds and nighttime klonopoin. and other meds. My mind and stomach calm down enough i can get crackers or soemthing in me, not a lot but something the last couplenights. Tonight i felt like i was starving but food in front of me and i get nausaus.

We find out monday if we get a small loan, i want to not owe anyone anything, other than the bank and found out my credit that my late abusive husband ruined? I no longer have ANY bad credit but i also have no credit but with us both on the loan and its small we should get it they said, i have been at that credit union since i was 16. They know i pay my bills etc. They evven said no creditis better than bad credit. And they respceted that i startedout telling them i know i had bad credit due to my late husband and not sure if i still do or not because i have workedon paying what i could. After they sayd i hadnothing bad on my credit i asked them so is the place that keeps harassing me for 2 years now fradulent? They change their numbers constantly calling me they said tell and give them ntohing there is NOTHING owed on your credit. So people if credit services of america harasses you thats the one that claims i owe 5 grand but also say they cant tell me who it is owed to or what for.

I have so much pain and anger built up i cant take it and we cant find my migrain rescue meds (i take zafapret and its a box of 6 nasalsprays for 2500 dollars so insuranceis not going to just replace it) My fiance is searching now, I took tylenol and benedryl and my pain meds but its not doing much, i am barely able to type this, i am becuase i need this anger and pain out of me and this is my outlet. I may write a journal that friends can see with more details only because i dont trust the person tonot find this, well not them they woudlnt know how but other people they know. I miss the old days when only DS members could see posts but i been on DS for about 20 years now. Not sure exactly but thru all the changes i been there. May change my name on here but will find away to let you guys know if i do.

Angela,
Betrayal is hard...especially if it's someone You think You can trust.
I thought I knew these people I talk about on this group and the PTSD group.......They just used me for their son, who is mentally disabled, WHO SO DESPERATELY wanted a little brother, they made me think I was his little brother.

And now they don't talk to me anymore........And don't really care either.

Hey Aj, I just want to say that i am here for you and i will keep you in my prayers. I understand how it feels, i been there with people in my life. i just have to go in a different direction and never trust that person again.

Yeah AJ, what gmason24 posted here speaks for me, too. It took my therapist's persuasion to finally get me to do it, but I did it after a number of bitter betrayals like yours from my mentally ill mother and father and my sister, It was hard, but I finally had no more contact with them.

You know AA, so you get how it was a larger scale version of the program's idea of "detach with love." Believe me, I still loved them. I just loved them from a safe distance.