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mujicaptsd 02/14/2016

Thanks for all the support while I've been plugging away all weekend at that tenure paperwork I've got to turn in on Wed. Feb 17th up coming.

I printed all 5 years of evaluations off and it came to 300 pages! Holy cow!

I'm especially proud of notes from people thanking me since I came out of the closet as a teacher about my PTSD, thanks to support here at DS PTSD.

Now, a problem:

The first 20 pages is a summary of my last 5 years of work at the community college, and that's the part my boss keeps fussing over. Not that she's wrong to do it.

But over the weekend I rewrote it again according to specs she gave me on Friday. Now it's Sunday, and she just emailed me now that I'm done that she wants to look it over to make some more changes in the morning.

Thing is, I'm getting to that PTSD place of mine where I self sabotage right when I'm about to cross the finish line. It's this thing where I just freeze up with my PTSD and I don't give a hoot any more. Know the feeling?

I don't want to do that to myself this time. I need just one more hoot.

Can you spare me a hoot? I'd be grateful.

mujicaptsd 02/16/2016

One more day, one more hoot....

Muskoka007 02/16/2016

Your exactly like me, I do the same.

Here are some "hoots" for you and what helps me is I think of a reward for myself when I am finished. Fine Belgian chocolates work for me :)
Sending you a box :)

mujicaptsd 02/16/2016

Thanks, Musk. It turns out the college was closed today due to snow, so I needed more than just the one more hoot after all. Your extra box of hoots will come in handy.

LillyPotter 02/16/2016

so good to read your update and how well it went with your boss, big hugs right there. oh, and then how you figured out how you were feeling *and* how that doesn't apply to you :O) so many extra HOOTS and TOOTS!

mujicaptsd 02/16/2016

I just finished another round of editorial changes from my boss, so I used some more of those hoots you gave me. I was right to think there would be so many edits that there was no way I'd get through them all on my own hoots. Everybody else's contributed hoots have been truly needed, and for them I'm grateful.

Seriously, keeping me from self sabotage here at the end with your support has been a blessing, y'all.

looney1 02/16/2016

Here's lots more hoots muji. Looks like the end is in sight

mujicaptsd 02/17/2016

If I get this 300 page beast to the printer today for its 6 copies to be made and then get one of them to the VP's office Monday by 4pm it'll finally be all over.

Then we reflect upon all the trees to gave their all for this much paper to be generated, huh? Ha!

Thank all of you for helping me not give up right at the finish line. I was so, so tempted to do a PTSD self sabotage, I came quite close. I'm glad I didn't. My gratitude to you all for that.

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