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I’m more than not okay. I haven’t been on here since my last post before mother’s day. It looks like you guys sent me such nice messages but I keep seeing blurry a little trying to read them my eyes are swollen from crying so much
this has been the first day that I haven’t been paralyzed by EVERYTHING that I was even able to log on
I’m in a really really bad place, I been thinking about suicide
im 36 & & last official suicide attempt was at 14 yrs old & I was put in a really bad impatient in the inner city where I was sexually abused & I was easy pray cause they could see how fd up any adults in my life, such an easy target.
& when I got out of there my life got progressively FD up so bad.
I want to write more more but I can barely see & im just using my one hand that isn’t as bad but it still hurts
some of you guys know some of my story the little bits I’ve tried to get out on here, but I’m not good at telling everything or close to everything- I dissociate A Lot
ive survived so much that it’s crazy & don’t thunk it’s faire to have to go through that much insanity
ive been abused & beaten SO badly, shot at ect... that I flinch at everything & when I finally escaped from my abusive boyfriend when he tried to murder me & almost succeeded & stalked me when I was hiding in cheap hotels & barely able to walk from being beaten so badly (even the white parts of my eyes where neon red from being punched & choked so hard & I’ll spare the details but really horrifying shit that the night I finally escaped I went running & running block after block completely naked & bloody (it was the only split second that I just barely got away ... so running naked & beaten like that I’ll never forget until I could run to maybe a house for help at three in the morning & boom just like that I see myself shutting down & cant rite anymore
i ‘live’ if you can call it that with multiple permanent injuries in Consatnt pain with a jaw that pops in & out & locks up
I’m in hell, I wish I could write & explain more
but wondering if the alternative to suicide is to live in this hell
I always wonder if I’m just so way to broken to go on & will never understand this hell
Im sorry to anyone that had to read that
i just dont don’t know what to do, I’m just sooooo beyond fd up
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Hey All...I hope that you have a lovely, peaceful beginning of your weekI have a bunch of chores that need doing but may put them off til tomorrow and just hang out with my landlord/roomie todayWhat about you?...Anything special going on?Have a great day and take good care of you!!..Xo
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Once again I've had a fever today. I'm not going to the hospital because that's a huge waste of time but I did schedule a dr appointment for Wednesday afternoon.
Wish I had more to offer but only my compassion:-)
If you need to please go to emerg…. When I was in the pit before it truly did make a difference... xo
During the domestic violence I was put through with my mom and her ex bf I thought about suicide like it was gonna be my heaven and attempted killing myself around 5 times. Looking back now, I think about what hell would look like for me and I strongly believe it would be exactly what I went through all those years. But like I said at the time all I wanted was to stop the pain that seemed was never gonna stop. I’m not in any way trying to push religion on you but what scares me now is the fear of going to hell and reliving for eternity what I went through. You are brave for still even being here. Cause fighting through it is the next battle. I was so afraid that that man was gonna pop back up in our lives to finish us off. Things weren’t normal for a while for me.
I really hope that with time and help you can climb out of this deep hole. It’s not gonna be easy. But I hope you make it. I have faith in you stranger. I know it’s probably not gonna make a difference but I’m always open to messages if you feel like you’re drowning.
I also hope that you made it through this long message. Hugs
That day u ran away u wanted to live, u had that strength to think and do that action to risk it and try run. U have that strength and fight in u.thats why u keep going today. U are like me, we suffer so bad, we get so low but we still have the fight in us.
Ur doing great. Ur not at all broken.
Hugs my friend. Xo
i understand how bleak things can get,i am right there in that dark headspace myself.
Offering you my hand.
We can hold on.and i have faith that it will be worth it.
love&gentlehugs
But when life is hard and traumatizing, being all in favor of living anyway is not always reasonable. So when some of us don't feel all gung ho about life and others demand that we explain why, it's really not the point. The point is to find some way to stick around anyway, reason to die or reason to live notwithstanding.
It's not about reasons, it's about the people who care about us like your, even when ourselves run out of the energy to care for ourselves."
Now this is key: we care for you, lilmiss, and you know it, it's what keeps you coming back.
Good for you for hanging on to that today. Keep hanging on to it, because we care, and we won't stop caring even when you're too tired to. That's how daily strength becomes real and not just a slogan. We're with you this day again, my friend. We care. Stay with us today, ok?
I wish I could rite more but I’m pushing through dissociation real bad but finally able to login today without freezing enough to wrote this- I’m gonna come back on here later & try to read your reply’s again to try to keep going
Gracias <3