Ok where do I start. I am so tired of this. I feel like a puddle all cool clear and calm then a foot splashes in and the puddle is no longer clear but foggy. I go along calm and clear headed then I speak to my wife, my pastor, or my counselor and I become no longer clear but so confused. Stuff is brought up that may or may not be true and I no longer know how I feel or what is true. It is so depressing, but what can I do when I do not agree, but question everything I thought was real.