FWIW: 2013 has contained enough thought loops to get plenty of practice. This is the first year since 1999 that I have gone this long without being reduced to a quivering wreck hiding in a black out chamber. "Migraines" is the most common diagnosis for that one. Again, one label is as good as another. I call them migraines myself. Whatever the label, even this modicum of relief might be on my end-of-year triumph list. Didn't need my black our chamber even once this year!

facinating. completely believible. personaly would go one step further using a visualization we developed. doable.

well done!

First of all, amazing self awareness again, arfie. That engineer's ability to look at self and habits of mind objectively is awesome. It behooves us all to develop that, imho. I love it.

Doing so gives us the capacity to look at habits of mind without judging them as character defects. They're sometimes just sputtering sites in our brains.

In hospital chaplaincy on a neurosurgical unit in 2010 I saw up close how complex the brain is, and how it's a physical organ with defects and assets. We don't judge ourselves morally for how our kidneys work (speaking as someone with kidney disease), so at times isn't it appropriate to look at the brain objectively, too, without beating ourselves up? I think so.

gypsy,
There are those who believe we are born with the ability to think and communicate without words. Some even believe it may be a universal language. It has been theorated that my childhood mutism put my cognitive memory of learning human language into a more accessible position than folks who learned to talk at one or three years. Alas, my amnesia is a serious question mark in the theory.

While immersed in Spanish I was presented with the challenge of remembering that first language. This was in 2008 within my merry band of Ecuadorian over-thinkers. If any of my subsequent ifs are in alignment, it is a purely sensory language. Don't tell anybody in Ecuador. Officially, I still think it was a by-product of cerveza y ouzo.

Anyhoo... That had something to do with your visualization comment. I seem to have lost the thread. Losing threads is undeniably a by-product of the thought loops...

Thanks for the reality check, guys.

i was diagnosed with psudoseizures quite a while back and only after many many tests and many many years of having to hide tham from everybody out of self presevation. the tag was put on them cause the drs could find no visible cause. so they were "just in my head" even though very real and very damaging. unfortunately not all in the medical field are so enlightened.

myselves we knew there is a actual biological trigger. either chemical or physical trigger. we noticed an occurance of stroke like symptoms happening when staying with a friend who dealt with similar issue in both him and me pertaining to the seizures.

i share this cause for us the onset of a seizure is interwoven between phycological and physical. one can lead to the other and vise-versa. that being said knowledge IS power. every step we take towards self awareness is glorious and should be celebrated!!!!

when you get into thought loops or any uneasiness, sensitivity, then you can experience pressure centers inside of your head

our thinking loops and mental state at the time affects also and shows through pain in some parts of body or pressure centers in head

extreme sensitivity to light is connected with migraines also and at any time with pressure centers in head which aren't migraines, when i have pressure in my head its not painful, with migraines it is very painful, either way pressure in head or migraine im light sensitive

you really make a lot of sense to me, from time to time I have migraines and until they pass i need to darken my room, make sure its quiet and no too loud sounds

there is imagery method to lessen the pain during the pressures or to lessen pressure in head when there is no pain,

build the image of white light on the top of your head, when image is clearly there take it into and through every part, organ of your body, feel the white light taking out every pain, pressure, take more time with the most affected part, breath in and out, starting with head down to your toes and take it out of your body
this is the way how my therapist couple years ago teached me, it is good for relaxation also and for rejuvenation, what i put here is basic description
for better one that you might try, there is many on youtube and might be different than this, some start from toes, some from head

you can also try to build sensation either cold or warm at the pressure center

one more image is to put your pressure or pain into imagery small box by your side, which you don't cover but you are aware of it, after that you can take yourself on any imagery pleasant journey which by time will relax your muscles and lessen any pressure

any method you try, need practice and within time it can be very helpful to release pressure centers in head

take out painful and pressure, dont make it the more painful, and you can try something else, but there is way to take out the painful and release pressure centers in head which can be very uncomfortable and making you unable to think clearly

i don't see it as delusional, i see it that it can be taken care of and make your thinking clear and when it gets clear then you can see better what is fact and what is delusion

hope i make some sense, this is how it works for me when i get into pressures

I forgot to say, pressure centers in head, chest pain, weakness in legs, stomach pain can be physical and mental part too

since I still have very good and im fortunate to still have good physical health I can say that any time that im not doing mentally good I do experience one of the common physical pains above or pressure in my head

when I experience physical pain or pressure than I know I need some extra work on my doing mentally better

As an Uruguayo-Americano, I love it when you bring up your South American experience as part of your journey, arfie. Being conscious of both hemispheres of the Americas at once is part of what makes me whole. Kind of like getting both hemispheres of the brain to work together.

Uruguay would be one of the places I didn't get to see and totally feel it as my loss. I love the spanish of uruguyanos I have conversed with. So clear and mellow!

So much world and so little time! South America is an amazing continent!