My ex was extremely mentally abusive, married 13 yrs, together total of 17 yrs. we have been divorced 4 yrs now, but things other people do trigger that abuse and I get defensive towards them. This has created a big problem between me and my coworkers, at one point a coworker " who I thought was my best friend " expressed to another coworker that I should just get over it already. Now they are upset with me AGAIN.. Can this mental abuse be PTSD? Or is it something I just need to get over and stop, "making excuses" ? I couldn't figure out for the longest time why I would get defensive when someone would talk down to me, or make me feel like I was stupid or making the wrong decision. I'm loosing sleep over this, replaying things over and over in my mind. It's like my mind won't shut down.
Orientation lasted 7 hours. I am exhausted!! I didn't make friends with anyone and didn't talk to anyone. I didn't particularly like anyone I was sitting near. They were kinda ghetto and rude. Talking wto each other when the instructor was speaking to us, on their phones blatantly while the instructor was speaking. So rude! Though the one lady accross from me is someone I will be directly working...
I was going to the gym eating well and trying to sleep well, but it has been like that this week. I've been feeling no energy to even get out of bed. I get mentally exhausted. I know I need to get up and be active but some day I can't.