You did seem to veer off balance for a while but you seem to have stabilized. I'm not sure what you are asking - you don't seem to be in danger from getting off the meds at the moment. In the end, you will be able to decide whether you felt better on or off, and what you want to do going forward.

i was not on drugs for very long. about i month and 3/4. it was prozac. the drug i've nick-named the wipe out drug. i'll explain if you'd like. i tapered off and i experineced assorted feelings and reactions which included mental and physical. i've been off for over a month now and i'm sure i'm still experiencing things on and off because of it. they say it could take up to 3 months to be completely gone from the system. i however never lost the desire to self harm during that time. strangely i don't really have that desire today. now at zoning i'm an expert. sometimes (rarely) i nearly turn off alltogether. did i tell you? and as for suicide, i can't do it, no matter how much i actually may want to. to me, you seem much more (can i use the word content?, happy? or what? - what that's good). and you've been giving me some awfully good talk and probably why i'm without self harm desire today. so your improvements are rubbing off onto me. that to me is a very good sign.

ever since i was diagnosed, i've been working with therapists and was prescribed medication, i needed both and maybe you do too. it's like i needed both in order to function, maybe i'm just being dramatic. anyway, i hope you get around to feeling better xx

I think that you still need to give it more time.

I dont know what im asking either dw lol
Just wanted others perspective on my behaviour recently just incase im missing anything.

Sarah, some things create a biological need for meds.
I would not sleep or think very clearly, or even get any usefulness without the meds I am on.
Pain is a big trigger for me, since each part that hurts has a memory of some sort of abusive or aggressive action. That fuels the anxiety, and the RA ,Fibro, affecting my diabetes...each feeding the other, swirling everything out of control before I realized that it started. Then it takes longer and more work to get it back on a livable level.
If you haven't already make a calendar and date any changes in meds, other substance and your moods. Maintain the calendar at least two months, since many behavioral and cognitive problems can't be tested in a medical way. They are done mostly by self report.
There only a few tests where results have been linked to behaviors or feelings, and they were found by accident, looking for a different reason.

It may help your doctor adjust meds for better effectiveness.

Hugs if it's a good day, take advantage of it and do some good for you.
Jewell