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Toughassteele
Toughassteele

Im done I really can't take no more.  The body pain as gotten worse.  It hurts to walk my feet and ankle throb. My legs and knees hurt beyond belief.  My legs and arms feel tired.  Can't stand long.  I feel like I'm going crazy the headaches are bad. I have had a lot of triggers lately.  Songs, places it can be anything. I had a bad anxiety attack and flipped out. Crying screaming  yelling everything is my fault.  The perfict song for right now is by Cher (If I could turn back time). Only if I could things would be so different but yet I wouldnt have got to experience thesyuff I did. My thought always is did I make the right decision? Ready to curl up and die

lucillegem
lucillegem
BIG WARM HUGS - let it out darling, but know its not your fault. Its one of the toughest things to challenge, for a long time I thought I too "deserved" pain etc but no, no no! we have to learn to be gentle with ourselves cuz God knows the world can be cruel. sorry your going through so much pain, but stay strong. the sun will soon break through, in the mean time know your not alone in the struggle.
Toughassteele
Toughassteele
Thank you and hugs back. I just feel so lost. Not sure where to turn.
patti22
patti22
It's crazy how bad the headaches can get.
Toughassteele
Toughassteele
Yes they make me sick to my stomach.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
None of it is your fault, you know that, right? No matter how much the triggers and pain try to tell you it is, it's just not. Trauma was not our choice, ever.

The pain is awful, and the triggers everywhere, this I know, too. Be gentle with yourself, forgive yourself for falling for the lie that it's your fault, we all do that, the pain pushes us there. But you're innocent, tough, and we're with you here.
Toughassteele
Toughassteele
I just feel like its my fault because I made a few choices in life and now I'm paying for it. My Fibromyalgia is so bad right now I hurt to a point I can't even walk and it hurts to lay here. I got to by someone that I thought loved me very much that I deserve all my beatings. I was in total shock. I didn't ask to be hit on as a child or from my ex husband to a point were I had bruises as almost got strangled to death, or from my last relationship I got beat for 10 hours straight 2 ribs broke 25 head contusion bursies allover my hair cut short degraded. I did not ask for that. I know I have done wrong we all have at some time in our life. I want to be happy but I don't think I ever will be. Thank you for the support
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