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It's little things

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I got quite disturbed by a single sentence in a textbook tonight. Like, literally, because of a comment in the book... I feel this desperation to feel like I'm in control. I could feel my defences coming up just reading it and it wasn't even directly about what it reminded me of... It was involving how people sometimes get addiction treatment against their will (I'm not an addict, but it just freaked me out...) Let me tell you, just the thought of someone's independence being taken from them scares the living daylights out of me. Man, I just don't know. Why does such a little thing like a sentence in a book stress me out? It reminds me of things I don't want to remember or think about. I wish I could just start over, fresh, without this fear. I know it's unreasonable and over-the-top. I just get really weirded out by this kind of stuff. Even reading that someone might not be in control (particularly over treatment and their right to make their own choices etc) makes me feel cornered... gives me thoughts of seeking an escape so this doesn't happen again, I can't handle being trapped again, I need to feel like my right to make choices for myself is not in danger... this just freaks me out so much..!! I'm sure you guys have little things like this too, just wanted to be heard about this particular sort of thing because it makes being objective and reasonable about things hard sometimes? :/

RestlessTraveler
RestlessTraveler
One, let’s start off by saying that if you’re feeling it, then it isn’t unreasonable. Your feelings are valid. I completely get the not being in control. I feel like I always have to have things perfectly set and I have to be in charge otherwise they change. I know that sometimes it feels like you’re the only one feeling this sort of thing, but trust me. You’re not. Even just reading a sentence in my favorite book can send me into flashbacks and into crisis. Someday, they will lesson and you will be able to see that scentence without having a panic attack. Just remember, you are in control of your life. Take baby steps, and you will get there.
RestlessTraveler
RestlessTraveler
Also, whenever you are feeling like you’re loosing control, take a couple of deep breaths, then try and take a walk. I know this seems like a little thing, but you are in control of your body, and where you walk and end up at. It’s the little things that help.
arfie
arfie
In the literal weapons from where the "Trigger" metaphor is drawn, the trigger is typically the smallest piece of the device. One mindless little spark is all it takes to blow tons of dynamite and/or countless other volatile mixes. If the trigger hits an empty chamber, nothing happens.

Don't let the size of the trigger distract you, Question. It's the size of the volatile mix which makes all the diff. What's in your volatile mix?

Continued support while you sort. Hope healing happens here.
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