Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group

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tonyaabernathy 10/12/2011

I am usually on the site Physically & Emotionally abused,but I have many problems that stem from the years of abuse.I don't feel like I'm actually living, just doing what I have to do to get through everyday.If I didn't have my daughter to take care of I would probably go to bed and not get up anymore.I don't feel like a human anymore!I don't feel like a women,like I use to I feel, so insignificant,invisible,defeated,I jump at every noise.Sometimes I wonder if it is depression or from the 25 years of abuse that I have lived and PTSD,but whatever I am living is really unbearable.I just crave peace at all cost because the marriage I have lived in for so long there hasn't been any peace,I really find it amazing that I am still alive, but I feel as if I am only existing now.I want to feel better so badly but really don't know how,I am seeing a counselor 1 time a week,but it is about the divorce and getting through it though I do talk about my feeling from the abuse I am not getting alot of help for my pain.Do any of you have any suggestions?Thanks for listening to me.

deleted_user 10/12/2011

Have you talked to your counselor about PTSD, is he/she experienced with trauma/abuse. If not you may want to try to find someone who is. What you describe are identifiers for PTSD, but I'm not qualified to diagnose. Good luck.

deleted_user 10/12/2011

I have to agree, those are some of the signs of PTSD and also depression...it is possible to have both, I suffer from both.
You would probably be much better helped by a therapist or counselor who can help you with those feelings. Nobody should have to live like that, my heart really goes out to you. I have 2 kids, if it wasn't for them I would likely stay in bed all the time.
I'm not at all a professional, so I can't say for sure either way.
Best of luck to you, I really hope you can find the help you need.
Hugs
Hollie

deleted_user 10/13/2011

Your experience sounds very familiar to mine. I suffered from strong depression (which led to the feeling of 'just living'- I felt like a shell) and PTSD (sudden movements were bad, still have nightmares). I was put in therapy for reasons regarding my parents for years yet it wasn't until much later that it started to click for me. I think it would be beneficial if you told your counselor that you do not think it is enough for you. When I got to that point, I pursued in-patient treatment. It really helped me get 'on my feet' emotionally.

RichieD 10/13/2011

I agree with the other posts in this thread. I just wanted to say that I understand how you feel. There were many times over the past eight years while I've been living alone when the only thing that kept me going in my routine each day were my cats. I could not bear to see them left to fend for themselves in this hostile world of my neighborhood.

It's not good to go through life just going through the motions. I hope we both find better days ahead.

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