Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group

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bsnuggles41
bsnuggles41

I don't know if I am supposed to introduce myself or not so I am going to jump right in.  I see my therapist tommarow and I am sort of scared because my PTSD has been in overdrive lately to the point I feel extremely paranoid about everything, I'm convinced there is NO SAFETY and that the higher powers that be could smite me at any givin time.  This is a whole new realm for me that I have not experienced before.  Normally my PTSD might require me to tripple check locked doors, sleep with my phone and I have extreme sound sensitivity and sounds don't blend when its at its worse.  So I am very scared that something ealse might me going on.  My anxiety is off the charts even with my 2 mg of clonipin a day, I still catch myself holding my breath and having to remind myself to breath.  I saw my med doc the other day but I couldn't get a whole lot of this out.  I did tell her that I am having issues with the homework my therapist has giving to me over making a safe place but that is about as far as I got.  I don't really feel depressed though, just mostly on guard waiting for something or someone to kill me off and be done with it, and scared shitless most days.  I work tonight till seven and my appointment is at 8 so hopefully Tiggy (therapist) will have some good ideas cuz right now I would just prefer to hide away in my house forever with a ton of guns and ammo, which I am aware is not the most healthy idea and no I won't do it.  Well I would but I am afraid I would shoot Jason/Partner on accident.  Anyway thanks for listling. 


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arfie
arfie
Hello Snuggs. Welcome to the forum. Beyond being kind and considerate to your fellow group members, I don't know that there are any hard and fast rules here. You did just fine on just jumping in there.

My own hyper-vigilance tends to self-perpetuate. Once it starts into motion, it takes on a snow-ball effect that keeps getting bigger and more urgent as it rolls. I'm more of a flier than a fighter, so my own hyper-vigilance urges me to disappear more often than it calls me to lay in weapons and survival supplies, but it is equally destructive.

I hope your therapist does have suggestions to deal with ^it^. I need a whole arsenal of therapy exercises to manage mine. Peer support is one of the tools I use. This forum is one of my sources of peer support.

Welcome aboard. Hope you find healing companionship here.
SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Welcome aboard. Agree with all Arfie said. Really connect with the sound thing. Zoom from sleep to an 11 on the 0-10 scale. I know we are supposed to keep phones away from us when sleeping, but I need to know I could call 911 from under the covers. Sounds like you are a good fit here. Healing hugs.
patti22
patti22
A third round of welcoming here. Your therapist sounds terrific.

@Simpsons...glad to see you back. I was worrying about you.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Welcome to the board..... I'm sorry that you're struggling so much right now.... This is a good place to come...... Gentle hug.....xo
bsnuggles41
bsnuggles41
Thank you all for the welcomes and support. I did make some headway with Tiggy today, We are going with I need a Happy Place of my Own, instead of calling it a safe place, and cover the safety we came up with some things like putting an old cell phone that has been charged in the upstairs bathroom so If I ever have to run that way I don't have to worry about having something to call 911, also we decided to make a couple of escape routes in case I ever need them. So, all in all, it went good and I am feeling much better, my hypervigilance is still in total overdrive and even with my earplugs I couldn't get to sleep till eleven this morning (I work nights) I still feel like I am being over paranoid but basically Tiggy is just aiming to help me feel safe. So that is a plus!!! Hugs to All
Beatha
Beatha
Hi bsnuggles and welcome

Good for you to change the name from safe place to a Happy Place of your Own, sometimes it's these changes of how I look at things that help me.

Sorry about your hypervigilance, it's something I know all too well. Hope you find a way to relax a bit.
MammaBear02
MammaBear02
Good luck with your therapist. You have a good head on your shoulders. I know it doesn’t feel like that but you seem very aware of yourself and that’s so important. Keep it up!
pam4him
pam4him
Welcome! I hope we can be part of your safe/happy place when needed. I'm glad you felt like some headway was made with Tiggy. It kind of sounds like the homework may have hit a trigger for you. If you haven't yet, perhaps look back over it carefully WITH Tiggy to see if there is something "between the lines." It could explain the hyped up anxiety. Something may have told your mind to prepare for flight or fight. Try to be honest with Tiggy about this to allow for safe guidance. Prayers for peace and wisdom.
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