I feel the same. I was never able to heal. On the contrary I am getting worse...In order to semi-cope I need a lot of rest. I hope you get some rest.

Yup, I sometimes wish memories could be surgically removed. Sometimes. Then I remember how much I like doctors...

As it is, I'm stuck with them. The harder I fight them, the stickier they seem to get. Acceptance is where I had to start. I am still stuck with the memories, but they don't dominate the way they did when I was fighting them.

Keep posting, Shadow. There are ways to cope. You are not alone.

I am sorry shadow. :( Maybe after you sleep you will feel better. Sleeping helps me sometimes to reset.

Thank you all. I slept but everything feels so surreal. Like I'm in my body but we are separate. Like someone else is moving my body. I feel like a little kid again. I want to curl up in a ball and hide some where small and dark and safe. But there's no where safe. It's flashbacks. I've been thru them before but not this bad in a while. It will take a few days to recover but I'll be ok.And yes Tusitalo I'm getting worse to. Some wounds are so deep they never heal.

I'm sorry you're going through this, Shadow. Just want to add my support.

Like Arfie, I find the memories are worse if I fight them and the emotions they evoke. I hate it, but it's part of my way of processing. I can't "beat" them---they're part of me. So I'm working to peacefully co-exist. (Work in progress,)

Sleep is a good option, always. Self-care. Give body and mind respite.

Gentle healing,
Leo

Yeah, it takes a lot of energy, physical and mental energy, just to walk around in a PTSD altered body, containing those vibrating memories all day. I wish we could download them onto a hard drive and just take the hard drive to our therapist for service. Living with them all the time takes rest, like that thread Leo posted earlier this week. If I don't rest, I get brittle pretty fast.

At least we can vent and dump here some.

Keep dumping. Hope you get good restoring sleep.

Yeah, those little kid parts come out, they stay surfaced for a while...they think the same way they thought when they were in the trauma. Sometimes they think the trauma is still going on. It might help to talk to them and remind them they are safe, now, y'all made it.