Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) Support Group
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So thanks to all of you, I have a new tool kit to help me with my PTSD and struggle with addiction.
I practiced the breathing techniques, I started picking up my artistic hobbies again, and I started to journal about my past. It was tough...but I really felt that I was breaking through to something!
This lasted for a couple of days. It may not seem like awhile, but that was the longest I had been sober and happy for awhile. I couldn't have done it without any of you.
A couple of days ago, I was cleaning out my room. I had no alcohol, and although I was using amazing coping techniques, I still felt sick. I found a bottle of Morphine 60 MGs. I tried. I really tried to throw it out. I couldn't.
To my dismay, the morphine hardly works on me. But I still have found it to be somewhat of a relief.
When I wake up in the morning, I not only get sick, but I get SO agitated and angry for no reason. Like, I will snap at anyone or anything in my way. Just because I can. And it makes me feel like I'm turning into my violent Father who was an alcoholic. (And caused so much distress in my life.)
I'm ranting, but I wanted everyone to know how grateful I was to communicate with you all here. I know that I'll eventually run out. And when I do, I'll be forced to practice those techniques once more.
Thank you all for your support and advice.
I practiced the breathing techniques, I started picking up my artistic hobbies again, and I started to journal about my past. It was tough...but I really felt that I was breaking through to something!
This lasted for a couple of days. It may not seem like awhile, but that was the longest I had been sober and happy for awhile. I couldn't have done it without any of you.
A couple of days ago, I was cleaning out my room. I had no alcohol, and although I was using amazing coping techniques, I still felt sick. I found a bottle of Morphine 60 MGs. I tried. I really tried to throw it out. I couldn't.
To my dismay, the morphine hardly works on me. But I still have found it to be somewhat of a relief.
When I wake up in the morning, I not only get sick, but I get SO agitated and angry for no reason. Like, I will snap at anyone or anything in my way. Just because I can. And it makes me feel like I'm turning into my violent Father who was an alcoholic. (And caused so much distress in my life.)
I'm ranting, but I wanted everyone to know how grateful I was to communicate with you all here. I know that I'll eventually run out. And when I do, I'll be forced to practice those techniques once more.
Thank you all for your support and advice.
That said unfortunately this is one area where age is a plus. I have my addictions now, chocolate and art. Both sooth me and the people here do a lot to keep me off the edge. As a group I believe we all have a lot that may help others, but much comes from experience in having one or more boulders in life land on us and then finally learning to push them away.
So though all things might not fit or work for you now , save what may and file or toss the rest.
Gentle hugs.
Jewell