I left him I didn’t even say goodbye I shouldn’t have been with him in the first place but he was so sweet. So nice. He gave me so much. I need him back, but I can’t. I’m petrified. It’s illegal but I need him. I cut. It makes everything better for a while... not long enough. I need him it’s the only way to make it better but it’ll make it worse. I wish I never responded to him when he said hi. I wish I knew how to forget. I have ptsd because of him. No, me. I did it to him. I did it to myself. I did it to us. It hurts so bad. I quit my job because I was scared of what would happen if he came. I can’t be in a room by myself. I have severe anxiety. Anxiety attacks. Panic attacks at random. Depression. I NEED him back. I’m dying. My brain is tearin itself apart I can feel it I need help I hate therapists I need somebody. Please. Please someone. Anybody. Tell me what to do. I’m begging I need help please answer me, anybody. Make it better it hurts so much... please help I’m begging anyone please. Please. Just make it stop hurting.
i found out recently that my father touched my cousin 30 years ago when she was only 5. My question is is it wrong of me to still want a relationship with my father after hearing he did that? what would you do? i know its the past, and i also dont condone what he may have done. it makes me so sick to my stomach. thank you
last nights lesson at group was AdmitI have trouble finding people I trust. In my experience people aren’t who they say they are. I give chances and I don’t see the obvious flags. I need to figure this out. I can’t deal with my head. I’ve been home all week because of daycare issues and now they’re with dad and I want to hide in my bed and not come out all day. I have not felt this...