Thank you for having the courage to take and stand and to continue to fight even though it definitely isn't easy. Speaks a lot about your character. You will be a survivor of the darkness versus a victim. You are heard and you are not overlooked.

Hang in there. These feelings will pass and brighter days will follow. Like the clearing after the store.

How's it going, lilmiss?

Hi I've just joined you're post made me think I wish I had asked for support at 34, I'm 48 now and worked so hard to manage my cptsd. There was no online community back then, you end up living inside your own head....I read some of the posts and relate to everyone of them, it makes me feel I'm not on my own struggling to manage how my mind reacts to triggers and living normal, everyday I have to separate the two. You sound positive to me, just thinking that you will not give up are huge...stay strong.

Thank you for asking Mujica, I'm hanging in there. One step at a time "ya tu sabes" :)

Thank you Amber & welcome to the group, it's a good group of people

Hugs <3

Hello I am 59 and just now got the news that my mother was a narc who has wanted me dead for years. She abused me every way imaginable. I thought she was my best friend. (she used my siblings for her dirty work. I thought everything was because of them. But no she wanted me dead. As a young woman I got into 3 bands. My mother covertly stopped me from even knowing I was accepted. It's a long story I bought a guitar to learn to play it got stolen.I loved her all my life and believed she was my best friend. Now she is old in an assisted living place. After she stole everything from me. Including my home and my child. All done in such loving terms. She is so fucking phony!! She had my brother try to kill me at the age of 13. So much of my life was so confusing. I would struggle to get up and she would knock me back down. I have only been no contact for a month. She keeps calling my husband. But he tells her I can't talk to her right now.I can't ever speak to her again. She will just tell me it was my siblings not her. I told you all of this and there is sooooooooo much more.Because you say you are 34 I am 59 I will not give up. This is what I have been searching for my whole life. I can't believe therapist care so little about helping anyone. I don't recommend them they only make things worse by pushing pills. That's all doctors are really pill pushers. I hate them as much as I do my mother now. They only made my problems worse. They all need to be shut down. No shit the world is not what we have always been told.I told you all of this though. Because you are only 34 you have a lot ahead of you. You can still make something of your life. I am almost 60 have very little left I can still do. It's sad I always wanted a career all she saw me as was a baby making machine for her. What a bitch. Any way maybe I helped maybe I didn't but at least I TRIED!!! Good Luck