I don't really know Dr Seuss much

k :O) we may need more movies though. wonder if we might go to The Calypso.

have you ever been to the pretend ship we have on here? we have a wonderful made up ship that is for anyone to go to. it started out as just the very very top of it was showing up above the sand, (in my day dream on here one day yrs and yrs ago). i would go there with a bag of snacks and work on digging it out of the sand.

i had no idea how big that sucker was. holey mackaral!! my eyes are open all the way as far as they can right now.

Jewells came with me and we started working to un bury that sucker, we were goofing around and it was aplace to go - we still brought pretend snacks - the whole imaginary thing.

she lives the other side of the united states from me - we had to pretend, you know? plus, we are not children, but we were pretending as if we were playing like innocent happy never been hurt children. it was the best therapy in the world. we didn't know it, but it was.

I've never been. I'm a big baby, I like teletubbies.

did i loose you?

No I am still here, I just need it quiet so I can think

oh! no worries. i'll send you a link in case you ever want to look at it. it is a thread like any other post on here.

it isn't like any other post on here, but it is. it just goes on a lonnnnng time. lots of people go on there - have visited the ship : ) it is nice and a comforting place.

for some reason i have lots of rooms. i like to sleep safely on there, that's why. i used to sleep on there every single night.

k. xo

I can't make it quiet and I can't think I can't watch I can't do anything because it won't shut the fuck up I'm sorry. You're so nice and I'm horrible and stupid

You're not horrible and stupid, you're going through something horrible but it's not going to be forever. You just need to get through it one moment at a time. And you will! Everyone here has been through some stuff, you are not alone in that. You will come out the other end.

sometimes nice is a good/sometimes it is noise when we need quiet.

every single thing donna has said. there is out the other end. it takes time.

Ash, I'm here for you. You write that its not peaceful in your head and you don't want to go to sleep.

I'm here. Tell me what you need. I will wait to hear back from you. I'm worried about you.

i know what that is like. it isn't as if anyone can say something to the thoughts going round and round. not even christopher robin. great big comforter hugs right fresh out of the dryer to wrap you all up in. these are the ones that hold every tiny little bitty memory, of any kind thing that anyone at all has ever done. it can b a grandma or grandpa smile or hug, or the yummy smell of those clean fresh sheets, all cuddled up together in this loving hug of comfort.

Ash, I'm going to say a prayer for you, I'm so sorry your going through what you are.

Know that your a beautiful Soul, fight back if you have any n-egative thoughts, because
these thoughts are simple not true.

If ever I feel challenged, try saying Lord Help Me, then I Ask to go within my Heart, this is where
you'll find truth. God Bless You!

Okay picking you up with some goodies in a picnic basket....off to the beach by Lills house. Oh we'll pick her up too.
At the beach we get to kick off our shoes and look for some stones. Smooth somewhat flat with rounded edges. Okay , place index finger along one side and wind up like throwing a frizz-be. skimming the stone over the tips of the waves skipping them. Count the skips, 7 is good!

I never did that before you can feel the sand between 7our toes