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lllovelyrecovery 04/08/2014

Well, I was honest with my psychologist. I told him I was suicidal and planned to kill myself on Tuesday (the resident director on campus already told him I had a bad night, so I didn't want to lie, that didn't feel right). I promised to stay safe tonight and call the emergency number if I couldn't, but I'm okay right now. He's setting me up to get into an inpatient program for a few days surrounding Tuesday, so I can get through the awful reminder of this anniversary.
Honestly, I feel weak. I wish I was strong enough to just get through it. I feel ridiculous.

DavidNRockies 04/08/2014

I'd say what you did is pretty solid evidence of your strength, not your weakness.

May healing find you, or ... you find it.

I'm sorry it's gotten this bad, but glad you were so mature and responsible in how you've chosen to handle it :-)

deleted_user 04/08/2014

darn right david...beautifully put.

you're AWESOME lovelyrecovery. what you did took a lot of guts and a lot of heart, and i hope it's the first step in your healing recovery.

i salute your bravery.

deleted_user 04/08/2014

I don't know what anniversary. I'm glad you are getting through each day.

mujicaptsd 04/08/2014

The older I've gotten the more I've found out how few people have the courage to be that honest. It's not that people are cowards, it's that they hope to muddle through without coming face to face with themselves. Being honest about yourself is the hardest.

You're to be commended. You're not weak, that's for sure.

jewells1 04/09/2014

Taking help when you need it is nothing to be ashamed of. That's why there are so many of us here.

Remember what you do for you is the best of what you do.

deleted_user 04/09/2014

I just wanted to send a a really big supportive hug to you.
Your not alone.

LeoX3 04/09/2014

YOU DID WONDERFULLY, Lovely! You did great! Honesty is terrifying (believe me I know) but COURAGE IS NOT THE ABSENCE OF FEAR___ IT IS ACTING FOR THE BEST DESPITE FEAR!!!

YAY YOU!

lllovelyrecovery 04/09/2014

Reading these comments was really helpful.
Despite fear, I'm doing this. And Lilly, your words were really helpful. It's a rest so I don't have to work so hard, and I don't need to be ashamed of taking a break from the work I put in every moment of my life. Sometimes, it's okay to ride shotgun if you're too tired to drive, right?
I really want to go home for the summer and walk through the parks and play with my dogs. I want sunflowers.
Anyway, thanks for your kindness and support. I really appreciate all of you

deleted_user 04/09/2014

You are not weak! The fact that you are willing to get help and go shows that you are not anywhere near weak. All any of us can do is take one breath at a time, one day and one minute. We all have our bad days.
I am sorry that you are having it rough right now but never think of yourself as weak for you are strong!

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