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Help, y'all--Insomnia & skin crawling at night
Since just before Christmas my skin has begun to crawl at night keeping me awake. I thought I had fleas in my house and flea bombed my house 3 times, plus I bought every bug spray and ointment out there and took care of my clothes and bedding. It felt pretty gross like I'm a dirty person, and I'm definitely not. Though I'm an old bachelor living alone, I keep a good house.
It's continued since I went back to teaching school after the holidays Jan 18th and the insomnia started to show in my work, so I finally went to my primary care doc yesterday. He said it wasn't bugs, and sent me to a specialist right away.
My doctor's appointment this morning was tough-the appointment did what it was supposed to do, though the doctor's bedside manner stunk--that's what made it tough, but we'll leave that for another time. However, later in the day a good thing happened: my boss offered me an extra class teaching in the summer. It would be via Distance Learning alongside my favorite Distance Learning aide, so it would be fun. Then the extra money would go toward saving up for retiring to that place in Mexico I just visited over Christmas as my Christmas present to myself since I don't spend Christmas with my abusive family. Something that makes me look forward to the future, maybe a future when my skin doesn't crawl any more, right?
Pretty good day, in the end, then. Just thought I'd express my gratitude.
As to what the specialist had to say, it turns out I've got a skin disease called prurigo nodularis that in my case is caused by my kidney failure, a skin disease that's making my skin crawl & keeps me up at nights. Gross, huh? I haven't been talking about my insomniac struggle with it over the last month much here because I was embarassed.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prurigo_nodularis
At least it's not all in my head. A lot of patients complain that it's blamed on them that way, and with my PTSD diagnosis that could've happened. Glad it's clearly identified as kidney disease, although I am kind of fed up with chronic kidney disease, too. Now this. On the Wiki link above it says "Prurigo nodularis is very hard to treat." Like kidney disease. Like PTSD. How come I don't even any of the easy diseases to treat? What a selfish thing to say. But I can't deny it's crossing my mind.
Anyway, my skin's still crawling tonight, but at least I know what it is, and I don't have to work tomorrow. I have to speak in a church Sunday morning, though. Support welcome.
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Due to my increased paranoia, anxiety, and a panic attack over the weekend, my psychiatrist has put me back in a full dose of Zyprexa until further notice. Every time I think I'm getting ahead something happens and it's back to square one. I knew he was gonna do this but I can't help feeling disappointed. It is what it is.
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Hiya My internet is changing today and I'm not sure how long the switch over will take, I'm hoping 24 hours at the most, but I'm probably being too optimistic We are changing to another company and going full fibre for the internet. But at least it's changing to the one payment rather than the payment for the home landline phone and a payment for the internet. So I'm not going to be on here...


thanks you so much for sharing this. Also I hope you get some relief from this.
When I have insomnia personally (going through a bit of the insomnia myself right now) I usually realize that a lot of times has to do with stress. Sorry you felt embarrassed, no need to, I don't judge ya one bit. You got a lot going on in your mind it's not surprising at all the insomnia affect.
I can relate a lot with what your saying when you say "can't I have something easy that's easy to treat" People like us for sure feel that way. When I'm dealing with the PTSD, fibro flares, migraines, arthritis etc. & many old severe injuries that have not healed right & doctors look perplexed how to treat them when everything we've tried to treat it doesn't work I also have those moments. I sometimes think in my head I'm not being like whoa is me but sometimes think "well damn, this is a little much, a little intense" I also wish there were some pill that can just cure & boom all these issues be gone.
You are very very strong about the kidney stuff. I'm in awe of your strengths a lot actually. I also pray for you a lot about your kidney stuff, so if any way that helps or find comfort knowing there's someone out there praying for that issue a lot for you. ( Lots of good energy coming from this way for ya :) )
Did they give you any medicine that can help a little with your skin? If so maybe between that & now knowing now what it is can help you not wonder what if so much. Hope that made sense. But yea I for sure think all of that plus you deciding life choices like where are you gonnna retire & also the start of a new semester all combined probably have a lot to do with your insomnia.
I send you support and the utmost respect at this time & really hope things get a little easier & you eventually moving forward start to get a little more sleep each night. It'll come, I do believe that for you.
Like I said before, you are most definitely in my prayers rite now. I'm keeping the hope for ya. Sending you many peaceful vibes :)
(((((((Hugs)))))))))
Best of luck....Patti
Meditative aromatic herb and mineral oil baths with soft light and music have been my best relief.
Hope you find what works for you. I would be interested to know if the docs have a different remedy for yours. It sure is a yucky feeling.
It's really been a problem, not just a discomfort, in how it brought on insomnia I do not need insomnia with my PTSD. I'm glad it's ok to talk about itching as an insomnia problem bringing on my PTSD symptoms and that you understand that the way you do. Insomnia undermines my recovery and ability to function with PTSD. Since an inability to rest was beginning to undermine my effectiveness at work once school was back in session, I had to ask for help from doctors and from you.
So thanks for your support, first of all. Then thanks for the mention of cortizone cream--I'm going to the store to fill a prescription strength order for that from my pharmacy today. Thanks for mentioning how cold works, too. When I was in Mexico with this itch two weeks ago I took cold showers. Now that I got back into winter weather where I live, even though temperatures are in the 30s and 40s, I ran my air conditioning in my car to get some relief. I turned my house thermostat down, too.
I'll try to get naps in today to prepare for tomorrow. I'm still itching and feeling the crawling on my skin, but it helps to know I can say so and that I'm not alone.
Even with the uncommon problems, I let my freak flag fly. One soul-mate is easily worth the price of a million brow beatings.
I don't know if this could help you or not... I take Melatonin for sleep and it does help some... It states you can take it with kidney disease but of course you'd have to check with your doctor.... Another hug sweetie... I hope you can have some peace tonight......xo
http://www.kidney-symptom.com/ckd-stage-3-diet/971.html
Weeb, I'm so sorry you're have kidney disease too. Sorry for the loss of your dad to this thing as well. It's got to be hard not only to have lost him, but to have seen his loss as a sort of a preview of what might happen to you, too.
I have a student at my college who is ahead of me in the kidney disease process. She had a transplant last year. She's a great support, while at the same time she is able to give me previews of what a transplant is like. The reality checks I get from her encourage me to keep on doing what my kidney doc says. Rather than feel sorry for myself and wish for a transplant as a cure, I see what it's really like. That motivates me to do what I need to in the present forestall dialysis and transplant and be a better kidney patient in the here and now.
Thanks for your encouragement, too. I'll be sending you good thoughts tomorrow about that needle insertion to deal with that cyst. Isn't it weird how many of those pop up with kidney disease? I've had two cut out, and yesterday they found a third. But it's not in the way like yours, so I got lucky this time. I'll be rooting for you with yours, that's for sure. Much support to you.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Prurigo_nodularis