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This shit has gotten so bad that i cant seem to even process current emotions at all. i got to spinning tonight... and cant stop. cant stop crying, cant stop reliving every fucking thing that has ever happened to me in my life... over and over again. it just wont stop. im breathing but it hurts.
i just want a shoulder to cry on but there is no one. NO one i can call right now. Last time this happened i ended up calling both my exes whom im friends with and they both came and got in a fight. now i cant call any of them. or anyone. i hope this ends soon. this is bad. i feel horrible... my grandma died nearly 20 years ago, and im still spinning on that since it was yesterday. cause i never processed it. i held it in too. cause once she was gone i had no one. ive been crying for an hour. and every thing since then and before then, and whenever then.
i just want a shoulder to cry on but there is no one. NO one i can call right now. Last time this happened i ended up calling both my exes whom im friends with and they both came and got in a fight. now i cant call any of them. or anyone. i hope this ends soon. this is bad. i feel horrible... my grandma died nearly 20 years ago, and im still spinning on that since it was yesterday. cause i never processed it. i held it in too. cause once she was gone i had no one. ive been crying for an hour. and every thing since then and before then, and whenever then.
The energy was there for me, so the matter was to try to channel it into anything less painful than that relationship I was obsessing about. A book. A movie. Writing, like you're doing so well here. Burning it off but it a different direction, in a way that didn't make the problem worse. When something sets us off, like a relationship can do, that's a fact. But can we channel it even the least little bit? That's how, little by little, I got back some self control.