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This morning I got so disrespected by an adult student in a class I teach at a community college I just felt humiliated and like quitting. In front of a whole classroom of students, and the adult student didnt just disrespect me directly once, but several times until I told the student to stop of leave.
I reported it to my boss, I had a staff person see it and witnsess for me that it was truly as bad as it seemed to me. But I really felt like quitting my job teaching for the first time in a long time, and I said so in a thread here earlier today.
So I teach a night class. I felt like calling in sick and not going. My PTSD symptoms were going full tilt, and I didnt feel like being around people, much less in front of them as a leader. If one more of those students humiliated me again, I didnt think I could take it.
Turned out to be a beautiful class. I had a guest speaker come in to talk about PTSD and how she recovered, and some students really connected with her. It was worth it not to quit earlier in the day, at least not to stay home and take a sick day. It was worth it to go on and stand in front of this class tonight and introduce this guest speaker who did some good talking to the students in this class.
I dont know if itll be worth it tomorrow, and I dont know if that student in my morning class on Thursday will give me more disrespect and get away with it. But taking it one day at a time, it was good that I didnt give up on this evenings class because of the abuse I took from that student in this mornings class.
Its because I came here for support and daily strenghth that I could do that. I hope others get what they need here like I did today. I really do.
I reported it to my boss, I had a staff person see it and witnsess for me that it was truly as bad as it seemed to me. But I really felt like quitting my job teaching for the first time in a long time, and I said so in a thread here earlier today.
So I teach a night class. I felt like calling in sick and not going. My PTSD symptoms were going full tilt, and I didnt feel like being around people, much less in front of them as a leader. If one more of those students humiliated me again, I didnt think I could take it.
Turned out to be a beautiful class. I had a guest speaker come in to talk about PTSD and how she recovered, and some students really connected with her. It was worth it not to quit earlier in the day, at least not to stay home and take a sick day. It was worth it to go on and stand in front of this class tonight and introduce this guest speaker who did some good talking to the students in this class.
I dont know if itll be worth it tomorrow, and I dont know if that student in my morning class on Thursday will give me more disrespect and get away with it. But taking it one day at a time, it was good that I didnt give up on this evenings class because of the abuse I took from that student in this mornings class.
Its because I came here for support and daily strenghth that I could do that. I hope others get what they need here like I did today. I really do.
Sorry about your heart! Wow, did that resonate. I guess you know I have permanent kidney damage. It affected my body, giving me fatigue because I literally have 39% kidney function, meaning 61% isn't filtered or cleaned by my kidneys. I'm working with tired blood. You're working with a tired heart pump. It's not in your head.
Then there's the fact that, at least for me, I can no longer take the PTSD meds for my head, for my anxiety, because of the risk of kidney damage. So there's that. You might have medication restrictions, too, for your heart.
Ain't it just grand sometimes? Most days I charge at these problems and do great. Other days, I don't want to be a role model or example patient. I'm just too tired.
Thanks for posting, Gizzy. Hope you get a little pep. I could use some, too.