Hi Rising. Welcome to the forum.

I am a bit curious what your therapists do call ^it^, but what to call ^it^ isn't as important as recovering. Badly treated trauma can, indeed, destroy a life. "Moving On" is all too often easier said than done.

Gentle support while you find your way through, Rising. You are not alone.

Having been sexually assaulted twice before college, my symptoms emerged during college. I went for counseling, and my symptoms were brushed aside lightly by the campus psychologist as just me having an "itch" that "needed to be scratched."

I really wish I'd been referred to an actual PTSD specialist back then. From what we know about PTSD, whatever your doc is calling yours, the earlier it's treated the better. I went through years of symptoms and a divorce after college before I got the help I needed and deserved. I hope you get the help you need and deserve sooner.

My experience is I was raped by 3 men. I used large amounts of alcohol and drugs to bury the trauma. That was in 1978. When a family member started talking about being raped repeatedly by another family member my memories began to come back. That was about 14 years ago. I didn't start treatment for major depression and ptsd until 3 or 4 years ago. I still struggle daily because of it. I highly recommend seeing a professional trained in the treatment of ptsd. The sooner you do the better your life can be. REMEMBER THERE IS HOPE

gentle hugs, Rach. we've learned that the soonest treated the better with trauma. it is not ok to tell you "to just get you to get over it" or "to move on" - i'm sorry people are doing that to you.

they are wrong to say those things to you and are in their way traumatising you too.

you can find a counselor by going to the website www.rainn.org and either online chat or calling the number

they have local to you, free trauma counseling.

coming here was a smart and good thing to do; you've got us now and that is good xo

I'm so sorry you are going thru this! It was a tragic event, and it takes time to heal and it is hard to heal when you are surrounded by it all the time! Believe me, I know! Are you able to go home and heal? Could you go to another college? Have you reported him? All these options are your choice, don't feel pushed by others to ignore, move on or stay if you feel you can't and don't want to. Pray for wisdom and talk to only a few about this and only wise advisors you can trust. Others will have their own say and views and even might have their own agendas, don't open up the pearl that is you to just anyone or you might be tread underfoot. Guard you, and your heart. Praying for you in this! There is not just one answer, but the answer that is right for you, long term!
There are many colleges that are great, and moving to another might really help you heal, maybe even a small college where you feel safer! My daughter went to Liberty U just to feel safe. The big state colleges felt insecure to her and are to many! It's sad how this is becoming an epidemic, and the internet doesn't help w all the cyber sex. Walk away if you need to, for you, no matter what others say. Healing hugs! <3

Welcome Rachel..... I am glad you're here but I am so sorry for what brings you here

I think it would be really hard to start to work on healing if you're seeing him at school all the time ... at least it would be for me

I would at least consider changing schools..... Have you had this dealt with in any type of legal way as yet?

Not seeing him regularly in school is something that you deserve sweetie.... Gentle hug.....xo