Arfie, sorry to hear you are having a rough time. December is always a time that is hard. There is always a lot of conflict from both within and external. We are expected to be social, spend time with family, friends and be happy. Unfortunately PTSD does not take a holiday and the very things people expect from us is being social and that is usually the thing we fear and do not embrace.

The only thing I can say is to go easy on yourself. It is a stressful time of year.

In addition it is not unusual for people to come and go as we move along life's highway.

You have us here in this group and we are always here to help support you. You have provided some awesome advise and suggestions here and we are happy to do the same for you.

It is ok to take a couple steps backwards in order to take a couple giant leaps forward.

Take care.

May I remind you, too, that you have many friends here? Thanks for sharing how vulnerable you feel so we might come up alongside you and be your companions and friends through this time.

Enemies? I personally have been missing your pithy posts. It's not the same here when you are 'traveling' - mentally or other wise.

Join us in the count down to the nearly here post-holiday season. I am mostly sleeping my days away.

Hugs

I don't understand what is meant by being afraid to know how many enemies you made this month. I don't understand. I know that this time of year, is well said by CrazyCanuk, hard. Maybe it's that what you mean? Wait, do you mean that because we are not as social and happy during December, that's that's why you may have many enemies?

I know I am not making any sense. I'm just trying to see your point of view. You are definitely not alone. Believe me, its lonely... that's why we are here.