I'm glad you're aware of it...I know what you mean about how a trigger "morphs" you put it very well.........I'll remember to tell myself that too..next time i get trigger...yeah tiggers take alife of their own....


gentle cyber-hugs.

Just a thought: I had a friend whose next door neighbor installed security lights that were focused to inadvertently shine directly in her windows and she was able to file a complaint with the city about it. I think the grounds she used were invasion of privacy. Anyway she won, and the neighbor had to reposition the lights away from her place.

The lights were still there but no longer as intrusive.

People w/ outward directed lights aren't getting the blast from them, but have responsibility to not have the light be intrusive.

Best of luck w/ this.

Every ism and ology I am aware of worships light. I would feel safer preaching Jesus to the Taliban than talking to them about their security lights. Easier to just slide it into my trigger management file.

Not all light lovers are pedophiles... I need to get that through my PTSD stricken head... I am safe... No kiddie porn producers here...

Thanks for the support, guys.
Onward through the strobing light... I can do this... Please, god???

Eek. You describe that so well, arfie.

Something that creeps me out is when those extra powerful halogen headlights show up at night behind me. I was in 6 years of war, and a couple of times I got followed by a military patrol, once stopped and tortured by the soldiers in one.

In my head I know they're just regular people in cars behind me with those extra bright lights shining on me in my car through my own car's back window. But they trigger me. To me those kind of headlights appear behind me and it feels like an alien space ship has zoomed up behind me or something.

Which is appropriate, because when I was a kid during the 6 years I grew up in war our code name among us kids for soldiers invading our neighborhood was "martians." We called them martians because they wore green like green martian men, they alienated us, and they had no humanity.

You are safe, I know and I know you know that. But I hope you feel safe again soon.

Thanks, muji...

Just gotta keep reminding myself that it is only bad taste in ineffective security. It is no more threat than mosquitoes and ticks. Daddy isn't here. Not all bright lights are child pornography sets in action. It is just another irritation. It is only a trigger.

I WILL overcome.

Yes, you will....