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Okay well,
Im 19 years old, and to make the story short, when i was 13 i had a abusive boy friend who was the same age as me (yes, he was 13 too). I was abused by him for 3 years until i was at least 15, many things had happened other than the abuse, but i don't want to tell because i don't want to disrupt other peoples thoughts, because i know how hard it is when something triggers what you went through even if it was 5 years ago.
Well to get to the point. I have been having flashbacks lately, and i have no idea why, maybe its because i'm back to where i was living when the abuse started? i have no idea really. However is all i know is that i am having these weird flashbacks. like okay for instance, when i go to school the school that i am going to now was the one i went to when i was with him. (i moved because of him and am back in the same place i was before) now i am back in that school, and that's where i had my first panic attack and every time i walk down that one hallway, i get this weird memory of that day the sight, the scent and every thing. And it scares me and it feels as if i go back in time to when i was there like 5 years ago. I hate it .
And sometimes i will be sitting in my room and something i will subconsciously think about will trigger those memories from the past, and i feel like i go back in time once again and i hate it, it feels like i am stuck in the past.
And on most days i cant remember anything from the present its all from the past and i feel like i have short term memory loss or something. Im tired of feeling this way, and i want to know if their is anyway i can stop thinking about my ex and what he did to me before i turn myself into a nervous wreck. UGH,
Im 19 years old, and to make the story short, when i was 13 i had a abusive boy friend who was the same age as me (yes, he was 13 too). I was abused by him for 3 years until i was at least 15, many things had happened other than the abuse, but i don't want to tell because i don't want to disrupt other peoples thoughts, because i know how hard it is when something triggers what you went through even if it was 5 years ago.
Well to get to the point. I have been having flashbacks lately, and i have no idea why, maybe its because i'm back to where i was living when the abuse started? i have no idea really. However is all i know is that i am having these weird flashbacks. like okay for instance, when i go to school the school that i am going to now was the one i went to when i was with him. (i moved because of him and am back in the same place i was before) now i am back in that school, and that's where i had my first panic attack and every time i walk down that one hallway, i get this weird memory of that day the sight, the scent and every thing. And it scares me and it feels as if i go back in time to when i was there like 5 years ago. I hate it .
And sometimes i will be sitting in my room and something i will subconsciously think about will trigger those memories from the past, and i feel like i go back in time once again and i hate it, it feels like i am stuck in the past.
And on most days i cant remember anything from the present its all from the past and i feel like i have short term memory loss or something. Im tired of feeling this way, and i want to know if their is anyway i can stop thinking about my ex and what he did to me before i turn myself into a nervous wreck. UGH,
You don't have to expose yourself completely...right away. But just getting a little bit off your chest at a time...WILL help a lot. *hugs* Take care of yourself sweetie. I'm sorry that happened to you. *hugs*
You're on a much more promising road then I am. Keep it up. I'm sorry to hear that there seems to be nobody to listen. However, sometimes we find friends in the most unlikely of people.
One of my closest friends, is someone I would never have considered a friend before. She considers me her security blanket. I know there's someone who's got to be out there for you. Hang in there....there are always people to listen to you. *hugs*
I wonder, if, remembering that it was in the past and not the present will help you feel better. It's not going on now...it happened then. I wonder if that will help. Or if you try to associate new things with those memories...and hold onto the "new" memories tighter then the old ones. Just a thought.
My therapist keeps telling me that ... "When you get to the point when you no longer feel the need to discuss these issues/memories/ etc over and over again ... then you'll know you've finally gotten to a point where you've processed everything your conscious and sub-conscious mind need to in order to move on and progress"
Keep talking and keep seeking out the support and encouragement you have here amongst people who understand and will listen ... keep talking, it's ok because anyone who's been "there" themselves and can empathize with what you're going through will listen, not judge you and will continue to support and encourage you.
We're thinking of you and hope that you're safe and well, wishing you peace and comfort: Hivin