Yes at times...it's a fight to get on with things at those times. But one step one thing to do, is a hard goal those days. My classes do seem to help, but only after a few weeks, not at first, just to much newness...I wanna hibernate afterwards.

Hugs.

I do feel this way too. As I am just starting counseling I don't have any answers for you other than to say what you are experiencing others have or are experiencing. Good luck.

I feel it. . I used to feel it often. Its an odd feeling when it happens to me. I just want to curl up and lay in bed, I really don't want to talk to anyone, do anything. Everything just seems so BLAH to me. But having my boyfriend who has actually started making me a fort to lay in, like I am a little kid, and he crawls in to. At first it irritated me, why was I being treated like a kid. Then I realized he done it out of love. HE crawls in with me and just lays there, silently, waiting till I come out. Looking at pictures of my little sister helps to, she has been everything to me my whole life. I am not sure what advice I would be able to give... But I can try to just let you know that you are not alone in your feelings, even though it feels that way.
You will get through it, just some days are harder than others. Best Wishes!!!

Another yes here. Seems to be getting worse with age. Trying to keep my life on track in the grips of this seems to make me seriously cranky and unreasonable. Post Menopausal Snitery on high. Do me a favor and reject me, would ya? Please don't mistake me for someone who cares what this season's fashion cycle might be.

Appreciation and gratitude seem to be my best remedies. Looking for the good stuff keeps me from getting lost in the repetitious insanity.

You are not alone, Cecil.

If you're referring to dissociating, it's something I struggle with every day. I have flashbacks every day more than I dissociate, and my flashbacks are painful to me. I mean not just emotionally painful. They are physically painful to me, upset my stomach, give me headaches, tire me out.

But dissociating bothers me more. I got PTSD in childhood when I was raised in war and a broken violent home. By the time I was a teenager I was already an emotional burnout from too much trauma.

I'm not tempted to quit working on my PTSD recovery by flashbacks, bad as they are, and they do toss me around like a rag doll some days. It's that burnt out feeling of going numb from dissociating that takes the wind out of my coping sails. I come here to get motivation to keep going and not just end up dead in the water. If I do that, dissociating leads to depression, and a spiral down begins.

I'm sorry you're feeling this, but I'm glad you countered it by reporting it here so we could check ourselves about it and check back in with you. Let's help each other with this, ok?

Absolute. Subs go under all the storms on the ocean's surface. I've been on 2 voyages, a month long each from North American to South America. They were on the Atlantic and I got caught in storms on a freighter each time. Oh, boy!

A submarine would hum quietly right underneath that storm without a ripple. I imagine our glitter sub that way, Lilly. My flashbacks from PTSD have been stormy today, so it's great to imagine underwater progress forward without them.

Yes. I call it "over-adrenalized," but I have more PTSD than depression. Numb. Dead face I call it sometimes. I'm sure it crosses both depression and PTSD, for different chemical reasons. I wish you well. I hope the numbness subsides so you can feel life again. Experiencing Positive life is what helps our negative chemicals subside. Sending good thoughts.

I asked someone recently, "Do you ever feel like you just don't care any more?"

They replied, "Someday, someone will need your help."

It gave me the strength to move forward, if even for that moment...

I'm glad I'm not alone. I was afraid I was turning psychopath. Lately I just can't seem to find any real concern for anyone else. I am not even really feeling angry anymore. Just numbness. I feel completely distracted. I don't remember what I did the day before or even hours before. I have a sense of having been busy with something but don't know what. Finally yesterday I caught a particularly nasty memory looping in my head. I was able to stop it. At least stop it from looping behind the scenes. Today I tried so hard to keep present and I didn't even make it a minute before I had to bring myself back. I just gave up and let my mind do what it will do. I tried to stay present and focused today by doing things that required me to interact with people.

Cec,

I've been through distracted times like that, too. You're doing well with it, imho. Stay connected with us here as you weather it until it passes. I forgot whether you've got a therapist or not. That helped anchor me to someone outside myself when I went through this, too. No, you're not alone. It sucks, but a real psychopath wouldn't be afraid of turning into one, so don't worry. We're here.

I agree that dissociation is probably what you are going through. I like to associate to balance things out. For me that means routine. Not necessarily doing the same thing day after day, but more like physically doing something ordinary. For instance, take a shower and brush your teeth, or fold laundry, vacuum, clean the kitchen, make the bed. Whatever it is, it is more grounding for me when it is something I have done a lot in the past.

I hope this helps. Be well.