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Feeling like you don't matter

Alice0
Alice0

Because of the way something was handled, I feel like I just don't matter. Like people are just always allowed to hurt me and I'm sick of it. If I were someone more important I would be heard and have a voice. But instead I am nothing. It's very frustrating because I feel trapped. Idk if any of this makes sense.


donnawanda
donnawanda
It makes perfect sense, given that someone got away with hurting you and the authorities wouldn't take the trouble to go after that person.

I wonder if there's a way to advertize to the university students to ask if anyone else has been hurt by him? Maybe you can find your power in numbers.

Otherwise you may have to accept in the present - as many have had to accept - that the perpetrator got away with it for now, and focus on yourself and ways in which you can honor yourself and give yourself the importance and power you deserve.
Alice0
Alice0
Yeah, I just can't get over how messed up it is. Given what happened and how it happened and how soooo many people are covering it up. I asked a lawyer how far I could take it and they said he and the school could try to sue me for defamation if I go pubically about what he and the school did.
crushedclay
crushedclay
Yes this really make sense to me. It's awful feeling this way
Alice0
Alice0
I already had ptsd and depression before this. I just kind of feel like I always never really mattered and people are just always going to treat me like shit.
donnawanda
donnawanda
It is disgusting. And you should never accept that this is how it is and this is how it has to be. At the same time, for your own sake, you might have to turn your focus inward, to your self. So many of us don't get justice. And I think that accepting that is part of what allows it to continue. But unless there is a critical mass of support in a given situation, you could end up just burning yourself out.

They say "living well is the best revenge." I hope you get to take that kind of revenge. And I hope that guy's sins catch up to him sooner than later - but that you don't suffer any more over his fate and focus on your own. FOR NOW. They also say "revenge is a dish best eaten cold." So focusing on healing and empowering yourself for now doesn't mean you've given up on getting justice.
Alice0
Alice0
Yeah you are right about burning myself out. I've already done that and have gotten no where. It's just hard to focus on myself. I've never dealt with injustice well.
arfie
arfie
May you never deal with injustice well. Leave that for the unjust.

Hoping you keep the focus on treating yourself with all the justice you deserve.
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