TW 

This rain sure doesn't help when I'm already feeling sad, heavy, tired, and afraid. Last night was really tough with the night terrors and flash backs.  I don't have anyone I can talk things out with except on here,  and I have to pretty much hide how and what I'm feeling/ dealing with around here. No one physically close to me can be trusted with the things I'm dealing with. March is a bad month for me, I find it almost impossible to function sometimes because the flash backs and night terrors are so bad I feel I'm right back there going through it again!

I really need to talk this out but not in public group. I feel if I don't,  it will just get worse for me tonight. Advanced  notice.... this is a big TW (trigger warning)!!! I know how bad it is for me,  I can't even imagine how it is for anyone else.  I'm very sorry ahead of time.