Hey, so im 26 female and ive been diagnosed with ptsd last year, i know ive been in a lot of difficult situations ,, ive managed to get out of an abusive and toxic relationship. I was with this guy on and off since 16-25. he could not control his substance abuse and was/is a lot older than me. Anyways i always lived in small towns with him, i left my family at 15 although i still talk to my family we are not as close as we used to be. :( ....... Today im living with a new boyfriend, were doing good. However im ntw living in a large ciity i find very overwhelming and scary to explore alone.. i know i need to shape up though, i need to leave the house more. and i have been with my bf but i need to be able to do it more and feel confident in myself. I was diagonsed with ptsd. Does anyne else here have a hard time with just simply leaving the house to do anything??? Im thinking of things that could possibly go wrong when im out.

As a female i tend to have men approach me in public a lot, which i never really liked since i have past trauma with sexual abuse and have felt  trapped by men. I hate (which is not fair to others) when anybody of the opposite sex talks to me now, and i dont like that because its not neccessarily that persons fault, that im scared of the "what if" Anyways i wanna be able to make friends. But i feel like its impossile to with this ptsd. This new city has come very lonely to me, i know im a social person and need socialness to be the person im meant to be.  I just was wondering if anyone else struggles to meet new people with this disorder and not be looked at or judged in society as "weird" or "messed up" or any of the many labels society gives people with mental illness. it bothers me tooo much.