I had " bomb crater days." I am on a mood stabilizer now.
Life is WAAAY better.
Talk to shrinky-dink?

Yes I am like that too. I will be on the verge of suicide, then I am great, then angry, then hopeful, then anxious.. I am just all over the freaking place lol.

Yes, Shadow, I have spent decades on that emotional roller coaster. Mine has been explained as both bipolar and PTSD. There has been some debate as to whether my BP dx should be officially amended, but I don't see the point. At the very least, PTSD can be a very bipolar experience as we swing through our coping/despairing extremes.

I still haven't found a way to stop the cycles, but they have evened out ALLOT as I have found and practiced using more and more tools to help me keep my balance while I ride the waves.

Gentle support while you sort your own, unique dynamics, Shadow.

Yeah, the roller coaster is very familair, and so I'm glad arfie's bringing up bipolar and PTSD and mood swings, because some carry that dual diagnosis. In my case, I was diagnosed as bipolar and PTSD at first and took the corresponding meds. Then when kidney disease took me off the bipolar meds, after a year of reviewing my symptoms without bipolar meds, my docs (3 of them) amended my diagnosis to be PTSD only.

Nonetheless, it was totally understandable to have given me a bipolar/PTSD dual diagnosis at first, and taking the mood stabilizers wasn't a bad thing at all. What changed was more talk therapy since PTSD comes from traumatic experiences in the world, and not from genetic chemistry as bipolar was explained to me.

I'm like that too but I'm bipolar

Yep, just read your post after I posted something similar. Yes, I have those all the time as my emotions start to come back I cannot seem to control them. When I hold my emotions at bay and do not feel them, I am fine, stable etc, but I cannot hold them off, crash into deep depression where I just want to end it and wish the pain would just end, and then zoom on top of the world. So wired that I cannot get anything done because my head is swimming with ideas and thoughts. I can spend a whole day on the couch planning all the stuff I need to do, but get none of it done. By the time I am done my planning I am depressed again. Vicious circle. My therapy seems to have unleashed some very wild emotional swings right now.

You are not alone for sure.

After reading several posts like this one I'm starting to wonder if I'm bipolar or just PTSD