Good day to all. I have been realizing in my thinking in retrospect about my education, my jobs, my career path, which is currently inactive, how much undiagnosed and unmanaged PSTD symptoms have affected my ability to stay at a job and work consistently, mostly having difficulty dealing with personalities that trigger old memories and fears in me.

I have had such fear issues, panic, anxiety, insomnia over work relations, that I have quit most jobs after less than 2 years. In the past, I felt more coping ability to get out there, start from scratch and find a new job and hope for a better fit with more conscious kind people and work culture and environment.

The last job I quit, I walked out without notice. I have done that twice now in work situations that were abusive, and I did not know how to handle it. Now, I realize, in retrospect, that alot of my own unresolved feelings from my family of origin, past jobs and personal relationship were causing me to react sensitively to this past workplace.

I have not been working for almost 4 years. A part of me is relieved to stay home and try to work on my personal healing. A part of me grieves for the independence of earning my own finances, being economically capable, feeling useful and helpful, interaction with the positive people I encountered among the difficult personalities.

So, my question is, how do you all cope with managing your PSTD symptoms, the sleepless nights, the anxiety and panic, and manage to keep and stay at a job? Or, are many of us, not just me, struggling with being gainfully unemployed and not even looking for work due to fear of how to manage my issues in the midst of trying to work in the professional world. Any suggestions to help me get back to at least part time work? I feel like may need to retrain for a new career, as my old one was pretty stressful in healthcare.

Thank you for allowing me to share this, and ask this of you. I appreciate your honesty.