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You may have read my post a few days ago about dodging a bullet by recognizing an abuser before I could be abused....
Despite recognizing the red flags and feeling really hurt by what he said and did, I feel horrible bout breaking it off with him.
In the beginning I was so excited to be with him. He's a cutie, I'll tell you that. But at this point, that might be his only redeeming quality. After knowing him for years I did NOT see any of this coming and I really just feel like total crap. I miss him and that sucks.
I yelled at him after he argued with me and tried to make me think it was all my fault. I was twisting things, according to him. For me to yell at someone, I have to be REALLY pissed, and I was. I hate hurting others.. Almost to the point that I'd rather they hurt me. I know that doesn't sound healthy. I feel really conflicted and really sort of sad about this whole thing.
Having the courage to untangle yourself from a potential abuser is not even close to how hard it is when you're already being abused, but it has taken a lot of me to handle this and I'm burned out.
Despite recognizing the red flags and feeling really hurt by what he said and did, I feel horrible bout breaking it off with him.
In the beginning I was so excited to be with him. He's a cutie, I'll tell you that. But at this point, that might be his only redeeming quality. After knowing him for years I did NOT see any of this coming and I really just feel like total crap. I miss him and that sucks.
I yelled at him after he argued with me and tried to make me think it was all my fault. I was twisting things, according to him. For me to yell at someone, I have to be REALLY pissed, and I was. I hate hurting others.. Almost to the point that I'd rather they hurt me. I know that doesn't sound healthy. I feel really conflicted and really sort of sad about this whole thing.
Having the courage to untangle yourself from a potential abuser is not even close to how hard it is when you're already being abused, but it has taken a lot of me to handle this and I'm burned out.
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I feel so dirty and used I was drunk and passed out at a party when I came around some guy was on top of me rapeing me he covered my mouth and told me to shut up afterwards he got up and got dressed and said I better not tell anyone I found my friend and reported that I had been raped after having medical checks and them getting DNA I've taken the morning after pill IAM just so depressed and...
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Upon his departure, he remarked, "I am in many people’s pockets; no one will believe you." Have you ever grappled with the silence that follows sexual assault, where the perceived impossibility of being believed necessitates self-censorship?
Then a few months ago he sent me an e-mail about how bad I hurt *him* and I was just banged up all over again.
You're not alone, truly not. This group soooo got me through that second round with the A-hole Ex-Friend---and we're here for you now.:-) Conflicted and sad is normal---it's a break-up.
Give yourself a special treat and get lots of rest. It really is emotionally exhausting.
Gentle healing,
Leo..
He's not a *potential* abuser; he was one, flat out.
I suppose you could have ran the other way after the first red flag to avoid the hurt, but I guess you had some faith in him and your long standing relationship. And cuteness can mask a lot of things...
Don't be hard on yourself; be hard on him. I'm here if you want to PM me since I have so much in common...