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MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr

I've been in crisis a while. Massive panic attacks and depression, confusion, loneliness, irritability, lack of motivation, I want to stay in bed all day every day but I don't because #momlife My psychiatrist is amazing. I've never really had one before but I know he's in my corner and I trust him. He prescribed Valium and changed my antidepressant. Though social distancing makes it hard, I'm getting evaluated for IOP in two days and hopefully beginning a program.


Watching Tangled with my kiddo this song really hit me....lyrics at the end of this post.


Along this journey I've had several moments of clarity where something clicks and I understand the panic, the triggers, the feelings or I remember the things that caused ptsd or find grounding techniques that work or have a glimmer of hope that one day I'll sleep normally. Some things along this journey bring clarity. But what I want is full total clarity. What I want is healing, for this fog to be lifted once and for all and here's this song....



All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here suddenly I see
Standing here it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here suddenly I know
If she's here it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

And at last I see the light

And it's like the fog has lifted

And at last I see the light

And it's like the sky is new

And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything is different
Now that I see you

Now that I see you


Alittlelostinside
Alittlelostinside
Hugs. Ur not alone. Im feeling very bad too. We all have fight on together. U can do this.
SimpsonsOK
SimpsonsOK
Have missed hearing from you, but understand. Glad you have found a good Pdoc and are looking at IOP. Words have power. Talking and listening in IOP may give you more clarity. I can see how that song would have touched you so deeply. You'll get there. Wish there was a quick fix, but we are on our journeys. Glad you have taken active steps to get better. Calming and comforting hugs.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
So glad your Pdoc is there for you in this crucial time. I had an appointment with my own just yesterday. I like the words to that song. Songs are helping get me through right now.
Bluejay96
Bluejay96
Funny how songs always speak volumes when we struggle...... hugs as you continue to work through this while taking time to be mom.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I saw Bob Seger live last year, back when there was no coronavirus to keep us from gathering together in concerts. It's the morning after my bad day I had yesterday, so I played Seger's "Brand New Morning" to try to put yesterday behind me. He played it during the show I saw. Figured I'd offer it to you if you want to play it, too, Marah.

Brand New Morning by Bob Seger

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tjuwLDBnxBc
Beryl367
Beryl367
Sorry you've been in Distress. Love the song though. I hope you get what you need from the evaluation and the program.
Hugs.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Thinking of you again today, Marah.
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