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shelli 03/27/2017

Where oh where did my confidence go? So many fails before DX and put on disability. Now with limited income, still feel like failure. Walking to the front room makes me want to puke, as I am afraid someone will knock/and see me. Then can't avoid them. Everyone wants us to do things, but never $$ to do so. Then they get upset when we can't join.

Wish I shit money. Wish I were in a LOL mood, but just feeling sick about failures in my life. Afraid fostercare won't go through as we're always broke. Hmmmm don't want to jinx it or be negative, but it's my nature these days. Wish my spouse could find better paying job. When we met she BANKED! Lost that job (company bankrupt) and brings in 1/3 of what used too. It's frustrating and inferriating! I am not allowed to work anymore, per dr., so I must depend on her!

Anyone else get FROZEN IN FEAR AND FEEL SICK!???

LillyPotter 03/27/2017

i have felt that way, a lot. i don't have any children and am home alone because of being sick, i have to stay in bed a lot. i empathise with you so much.

i know it was very difficult for me to get used to being on disability - the idea of it was hard for me. i had some counseling that helped me; it made a big difference.

try to remember that resting is constructive - that you ARE doing something to help yourself when you are resting. i sometimes have a hard time actually resting. it is not easy stuff at all. (((hugs)))

LillyPotter 03/27/2017

i remember too? when people wanted to be supportive they would invite me places and that was hard because even when i felt up for it, i didn't have the cash to do things - that is a difficult area, i get it too. i don't usually get to do many things still, but if i can, sometimes i choose things that don't cost money - it is pretty hard though. more hugs

smendez 03/27/2017

That sounds like a lot. I'm sorry you and your family are going through that.
"Everyone" that gets upset because you can't join, can offer to pay, or be understanding. I'm a "fixer" so please don't be frustrated as I ask with good intentions; if your doctor won't allow you to work, have you been able to look into the resources that will go with your condition?
I get that frozen in fear feeling with big changes. And I have a habit of feeling like a failure. Those symptoms have gotten better or lessened with time - over 5 years.
I'm sorry you're going through this.

arfie 03/27/2017

At least a few of my shrinks called my version, "Over-compensating." The theory goes that no matter how many accomplishments I have for my curriculum vitae, I still feel like the kid with bad teeth who always got stuffed in the trash can by playground buddies who knew ". . .what to do with white trash."

Short answer: Yes, I am often frozen in fear and feel sick.

Hope healing happens here.

shelli 03/28/2017

Thanks..... I knew I was not alone!

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