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lilmissy7 07/23/2018

I really can’t stop worrying about everything, can’t stop thinking. I am coming to a point where I’m realizing that it might take a really really really long time to heal a lifetime of trauma, & that’s if I heal, I really want to heal. I want with all my heart to heal physically, mentally & emotionally.

I hope I’m not too broken

I’m moving in a month so I’m stressed, I have to try to find resources in a new area & hopefully doctors that can help me, it’s hard trying to explain the trauma that I been through (not sure I’ve ever fully disclosed everything, but I try my best) I always feel like people are going to judge me & I already have enough trouble with judging myself which makes no sense because there are many things I judge myself for that I couldn’t have controlled but I obsess about the mistakes I’ve made in between not knowing how to deal (example-when I used to drink to try to deal) & I beat myself up for some of the abuse I’ve been through & certain things I been through makes me embarrassed ...idk I’m so hard on myself & constantly beat myself up in my head for EVERYTHING. I would never think anyone deserves to be hurt & have to learn that includes me too. I don’t even know if what I’m writing makes sense but I think I gotta start to work on getting to a point where I can get things out

I’m just going to keep trying even & especially the many scary days that things seem hopeless

There are days that I feel the more I try, the more screwed up I realize I am

I’m sorry if this was all over the place, I feel vulnerable/embarrassed writing this but maybe it’s a step closer to getting to a point where I can get out some of my truths

arfie 07/23/2018

Healing DOES happen, Missy. Alas, worry is not the best healing aid ever invented. Just breathe, my friend.

Steadying support while you achieve your healing goals. You can do this. Small steps, big faith and lots of prayer (by whatever name).

Vltava 07/24/2018

I just finished relocating this past month and prior to moving and still even now I struggle with the same feelings, fears, and questions you have been feeling. There is so much uncertainty when moving, so much pressure to prepare to leave, to arrive, and to establish a life somewhere else. Setting up healthcare providers is especially challenging, but for me the most uncertainty & anxiety that is hardest for me about moving is continuing mental healthcare. Those doctors have a deeper relationship, they know not only what physical & mental issues your trying to heal from, but also who you are which requires a lot of trust to over come fears about them.

I’ve been bounced around my entire life it seems but the older I get the harder it becomes to trust new doctors. I find myself confused & panicked jus trying to stay on track and having constantly to block out the internal critic, and the fear of doctors. Like you, I’m prone to ‘self’ blame and criticism.

Moving is overwhelming but the addition of PTSD, Anxiety and it’s mind numbing hypersensitivity is a lot to struggle past.

Wishing you comfort, strength & hugs, LilMissy.

Vltava 07/24/2018

PS. It’s a long road, filled with bumps and but gradually, even when it feels we are stuck, I agree with Arfie. Healing does happen.

Best wises

silverlight 07/24/2018

Oh....lilmissy,

Moving in itself is incredibly stressful,and with any extra stressor i think all the other things arise to the forefront of our minds-and for you,unfortunately moving also means finding new doctors,and trying to
explain just where your injuries arose from-which brings on extra fears for you-and certainly,building trust for your new doctors will be so hard-

But,Oh,my friend,you are stronger than you can see from your inner world.
Even simply posting this,reaching out and sharing took such bravery.

As i have said before,i admire your tenacity and perserverance.

Yes,you have a lot to face right now,but we all are here for you.

i encourage you to keep posting,so that we can support you through these huge changes you are about to face.

Please don't beat yourself up or blame yourself for all you have gone through.

Find compassion for yourself,please?

You are a beautiful soul,and yes,Healing is utterly possible for you,even on those days of what seem to be horrible and unending storms-but the wind WILL settle down,and your feet will still be on the ground.

Sorry for all this,if it doesn't make a whole lot of sense,it is early-perhaps i ought not to be writing you yet-but i felt compelled.
i hate how you are suffering-it is unfair,you being so kind and gentle and strong and good.

We are here for you through all this.
Write as much or as little as you feel comfortable.

You are so very very brave,my friend.

(((((((( gentle hugs ))))) & All my support.

silver.

Beatha 07/24/2018

Gentle hugs (((lilmissy)))...

I see the strength in you because you're not giving in and want to heal. I see the courage in you for sharing this so honestly while feeling vulnerable. This is what I see: A brave, kind and strong woman, suffering but persevering.

When I lost hope you said you'd keep up hope for both of us. Now I'm keeping up hope for both of us, (((lilmissy))).

Lots of healing hugs and support.

mujicaptsd 07/24/2018

Moving is stressful for everybody, but since those of us with a mental health diagnosis need to find mental health support when we move, it's even more stressful for us. One of my moves changed my PTSD recovery for the better, though, so I've been surprised before when expecting the worst from a move and the best happened.

I happened to move to a city where there was a VA hospital. That's how I got my first therapist who could counsel me on my combat trauma from being raised in a war zone overseas. For 12 years I'd had therapists who were eager to talk to me about the domestic violence and sexual assault I'd survived. But when I brought up the car bombing and 6 years of other combat I'd survived, they just froze up and stared at me. It really wasn't supportive.

This therapist counseled Iraq war vets all the time, vets who'd been through car bombings. So instead of just staring at me mute, when it came up he was all over it, helping me. I had never seen such a cool thing from a therapist before.

So accidentally a move for me went the right way. It's really stressful to move and find new docs, lilmiss, for sure. But I'm hoping you'll bump into somebody who's even better for you than before. It happened to me once. Thinking of you sending supportive vibes.

BlueSky 07/24/2018

Aloha, LilMissy.... yes, moving is really stressful. We ourselves are moving on the 1st of the month, so yeah anxiety!! It's a lot of physical work (we've boxed up most of the house) and don't get me started on the mental gymnastics. Best I can suggest is write out your to-do list for the next day (errands, phone calls, or appointments) and prioritize your day. Start with the most important and work your way to the least. Whatever doesn't get done will have to wait for another day when you write out your to-do list for the following day. Make sure you take breaks and squeeze a little me time in there too to give yourself that mental space. If possible, circle one or 2 days out of the week just for self care, whether that means you visit your counselor, movie theater, walk in the park, or netflix binge at home with popcorn and milk shakes, is up to you. As long as it is for *you*. Good luck and keep us informed. Sending lots of hugs and chocolate your way.

lilmissy7 07/25/2018

Thank you so very much guys
Your words mean a lot to me & help, I was gonna write more but I’m migraine today so I feel a little foggy

Big hug to everyone <3

lionfox 07/25/2018

I worrying almost constantly im starting to break free of it. Hoping to find answers or someone that can relate.

Kate1976 07/25/2018

I hope you’re migraine feels better soon. Late chiming, but sending you a big deep calming breath and hug. I mentioned that I was trying meditation about a month ago. Started reading a lot about mindfulness. I find it is helping although I am still learning how to do it. When I feel the anxiety ramping up, I try to take a deep breath and refocus my attention on whatever I am doing. Seems to be helping. Maybe an option with the list? Again big hug!

EvergreenDreamer 07/25/2018

(((((((( lilmissy))))))

patti22 07/26/2018

Hugs.

I know the feeling all too well.

More hugs.

lilmissy7 07/27/2018

Big hugs <3

MillaSofia 07/27/2018

I'm just back from heavy turmoil and dark thoughts. What I wish to tell you is, :You control your thoughts. You can go on forever being miserable, or you can believe me. I won't say more right now. You may wish to kick me in the teeth, so I'll back off. But try this: say Stop. See if it helps. If not, there is a better method, words, ways for you. The Infinite is inside us. ❤

lilmissy7 07/27/2018

I can only speak for myself but I wouldn’t leave a comment that I thought might upset someone when they are already going through a hard time

I’ll still keep fighting for my physical health problems just as much as my mental & emotional health though

Thank you

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