Thanks for sharing, if you find out how to let go of the anger or otherwise process it, let us know what works for you.

Im like that too right now. im not sick or anything but i cant sleep anymore cause of night terrors

I'm right there with you. Hope it passes and we can get some rest!

Hey Chris- hope you have the chance to catch up today with sleep.

Fighting with your own thoughts and grinding on stuff stinks. I'm not there at the moment, but I have been.

Because anger is so mobilizing, it's no wonder that it's one of the states that make it hardest to sleep.

Good luck

I had a 2am insomnia episode that led me to start a thread just last week like this one. People were really supportive to me, so I want to be supportive to you. Being up with PTSD at 2am is no fun.

I got ticked off at the wind yesterday, literally, the wind.

I was putting groceries in the truck, and the wind was whipping my hair around my face so I couldn't see, and whenever it whipped me in the face I jumped and got even angrier, until I wanted to punch something.

So I cussed out the wind, and passers-by thought I was a lunatic. I'm sure I looked like one.

You are not alone...

Illness often makes us have less intellectual control, we basically can more easily regress emotionally. -Might explain part of the increase in anger episodes.

Waking in the middle of the night after a few hours of sleep is a specific, sub-category of insomnia. I have been working w/ my own ' fine tuning fix or to at least shorten the time I am awake. I feel like my body is racing inside, more anxiety than anger but perhaps similar physiology to what you are experiencing.

Here is what helps me settle down:
-As soon as I recognize that churning feeling I do not continue just to lay in bed, wheels spinning.
-I get up and eat something (usually warm milk and a couple cookies) - this alone, after about 15 minutes, seems to redirect my physiology and the churning starts to abate.
-Meantime I may watch a little mindless TV, or read something non-intense.
-After about 45 minutes I put myself back to bed and read until I feel drowsy.
The whole cycle takes about an hour. But 1 hour is better than the previous 3 or four of sleep loss. Plus while I am awake my attention is re-directed.

Don't know if this approach will help you, but wanted to share it just in case.

Ha, Annie, the wind. That was a good one. I've cursed stuff like that, too. :-) Thanks for injecting a little humor, the chance to laugh at ourselves, into a topic about something as miserable as insomnia.

Hi Chris, I'm right with you. EXCEPT I sleepwalk. and hurt myself not trying to. And I try not to be upset late before bedtime. I have learned how to work on my anger. And it feels so much better. And now I think to myself. Why am I getting angry. Then I'll come out of it.

I wake up at usually 3 am. If I cannot sleep. It is very interesting that I wake up around this time. I have in years and years ago in past. This is the time my abuser came in my room. 3 am. on every time .OCD. I have been working on self-love and self-care lately. My anger has dissipated. Thank GOD. I hope you heal. tc.

Do some things that make you feel good about yourself. and SLEEP
You are NOT alone!

Thank you so much for your support. I'm actually surprised about how many people has been through the same or similar.

Thank you so much. I managed to sleep but I got sicker. Been battling a very nasty cold. So I've been sleeping a lot...

Anyway, thank you. I'll try some of your suggestions if it happens again.

Oh, yeah, lots of us deal with this.

Get well from your cold.

Now it's my turn. I woke up to go to the bathroom at 4am, and now it's 5 am. I haven't been able to get back to sleep. This happened last night, too, and it made work hard the next day. It's the time of year when we are evaluated at work, and that's always some added stress there. So it's triggered my insomnia.

I'm teaching death and dying classes to nursing students right now. It's good to share what I learned from my own ptsd indirectly with them as I teach the class. But we dealt with the anger stage of grief this week. Sometimes that triggers anger in a student in the class, and they want me to deal with it. I'm their instructor, though, and not their therapist.

One of the students got triggered and got angry with me after class, wanting me to deal with it. I was underslept myself. I had another class to teach right then, so I offered to talk later but the student didn't show. I have the class again tomorrow. It would nice to be rested in general, but specifically so I could be ready to deal with that student.

The way I'd like to deal with that student is not to be dealing with her in class, the wrong time and place, and not to be the only one dealing with her anger, either. I mentioned her to my boss at school. A colleague suggested referring her to counseling, which is legitimate but will probably make her more angry at first.

Any suggestions? I'm just trying to get this out right now so I can go back to sleep. Help welcome.