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Back at it tomorrow

Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd

I've had a restful time in my community college's Fall Break yesterday and today.  Now it's time to get back at it again tomorrow.  I have 8 months left in my 40 year teaching career to make it to retirement.  I nearly went on disability more than once due to my PTSD and my chronic kidney disease. 



Like all other teachers around the world, it's turning out that teaching via Zoom from home is more of a workload, not less.  As a solo act, I have to be all things to my students whereas teaching face to face there was a department secretary to help with their questions, there was a print shop to make copies of handouts, etc. 



Now I do it all while also having to type up 40 years worth of handwritten notes I used write by hand on the chalk board.   They have to be typed up for each class to be seen on a computer screen rather than written by hand with chalk on a chalk board in a face to face classroom.  I end up staying up until 1am to 2:30am night after night just getting my digital class prep done from my 40 years of handwritten class notes.  



This last year of teaching before retirement is turning out to have its new challenges.  Support welcome as I go back to it again.

silverlight
silverlight
Wow Muji,what a whole lot of work!
You must be exhausted.
May these last 8 months just fly by!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Big hug Muji..... It does read like an awful lot of work.... I hope that tomorrow's class will be as calm as it possibly can be

Another hug as the countdown to retirement is on.... xo
Secouya
Secouya
Muji, that’s a heck of a workload. Keep your eye on the target. 8 months and your free to do what you like. Sending you support. Is there any thing your students can do to help?
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Thanks for your support, everybody. I used it, and so I got through today well.

The work day began for me at 7:30am, went through lunch without stopping, and just wound up for me at 4.34pm. That's not as long a work day as I used to have by a long shot back in the day. But now I do find it to be a bit of a load. Still it's Wednesday, and so there are only 2 days left until TGIF, right?
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I'm up and at 'em Thursday morning, but I'm not raring to go because on Tuesdays and Thursdays my classes are 75 minutes long all day instead of 50 minutes long apiece on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Friday. That extra 25 minutes per class is a lot.
Secouya
Secouya
Muji, Hope your a Friday runs smoothly and that your Thursday classes went well. Long classes and extra work to present them online is a real challenge, but I am sure most students appreciate your efforts.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Thanks, Secouya. I have my part time church job to do, too, this weekend, so it's going to be one of those weekends that results in my week day full time job + weekend part time job adding up to 14 days of work without a break. I'm going to try to pace myself.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I hope that you have a decent Monday sweetie.... With not tooooo much anxiety and burden..... Big hug.....xo
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I gave the sermon today on Sunday, and there was discussion after it but no rebukes that I could tell, so I'll be getting my guest speaker's fee in the mail. Because I've been too busy with pandemic teaching to get to it, I'll have to answer my AOL emails about the titles and newsletter blurbs of my next sermons coming up. But I won't do that today. Today I got today's job done. That's plenty to be satisfied with right there. Thanks for helping me get through day by day, y'all.
Secouya
Secouya
Muji, glad your sermon went well today. I Hope your week ahead goes the same. Take care.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Thanks, Secouya. I'm teaching my first Tuesday class right now as I write this. I teach live streaming from home now, which turns out to be harder than face to face teaching from campus. On Tuesdays I have double periods all day, so with 60% kidney damage that means that on 40% of the oxygen levels in my blood on Tuesdays I do twice a full time load. It takes me 2 days to recover from a Tuesday teaching schedule every week. I am really looking forward to retiring next year after 40 years of this. I'm tired.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Muddled through somehow.

Muddle, muddle, muddle.
Secouya
Secouya
Muji, I thought when I retired I would be bored, then 2 months in COVID hit, I am just as busy. I think if there were no quarantine, I would be even busier. It’s funny how this happens. I hope that somehow things slow down for you. Can you conduct sermons one day on the weekend or every other weekend so you can get some rest? Do you get winter break? Hang in there Muji.’
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Secouya, I'm really tired today, having only 40% kidney capacity is really getting to me, so I've done all of my Brightspace work, I've got my Thanatos 2pm class material ready, so when 3:15pm comes I can quit it all, go for my ice cream, and take a nap until time to go out with my neighbors tonight. I earned my rest.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I had a terrible sleep night, don't know why. Work was hard this week teaching community college from home full time via computer live streaming, but I got it done. I thought my mind would reward me for that with a restful weekend, but it went the other way entirely. I didn't get to sleep at all last night until 4 a.m., and then I was up and down from 4 a.m. until 8 a.m., when I finally gave up and got out of bed for breakfast.

I'm trying to nap during the day today so I can function tomorrow and start another teaching week again, but I'm really concerned.
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