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mujicaptsd 01/30/2016

*@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!!

This hamstring muscle tear hurts like fire every time I move, and even then the leg won't work so I can only move using a &$(#(@*!&@#$ walker just to get from my couch to the *@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!! bathroom and back every couple of hours.

So *@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!! all to *@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!! makes me want to bite somebody in the face, mother*@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!!

Then there's *@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!! PTSD dreams and no PTDS meds because the last ones *@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!! killed my kidneys, thank you very much. So I've got my leg on fire with a torn hamstring from slipping on the ice AND my head on fire from PTSD with no meds. Burning the candle from both ends at once. Nice. And how am I going to make it to my *@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!! kidney doc appointment coming up this week like this?

*@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!!

Just had to vent. It's been a *@&$#^@(!*&^#$!!! bad couple of days. Thought the day after the ER yesterday would've been better. Not yet.

Muji

aspiesarah 01/30/2016

so sorry for your pain muji,hugs.

atec 01/30/2016

%*#!#*@&$ injuries. I learned to juggle after I had my knee broken in a martial arts tournament. I learned to play the mandolin after being trunked by an elephant. You could use the recovery time to play your guitar more!

LeoX3 01/30/2016

Vent away.

%$&(%&$#93475(!@&(#%(&$((&$#(*&$(*&# with ya.

cheesecake88 01/30/2016

~~{}[] Muji, so sorry, tablet's swear in a different language I think...Vent away, taxi to the doctor so you can put your leg however it is comfortable, what am I saying !!!{}

looney1 01/30/2016

Oh Muji I didn't realise you had that in you lol. So sorry for your pain of both types. It is so hard isn't it? Keep venting and know you have our support and understanding.

mujicaptsd 01/30/2016

Thanks for cursing along, amigos. The solidarity really helped. Still have my leg on fire and there's nothing anybody can do about it so I decided to:

WASH MY HAIR! Ha!

So now I have nice, clean hair, a still burning leg, and I know all of you are with me.

Thank you.

neocortex27 01/30/2016

"%&^!$%# injuries indeed. The only thing that has helped me with a torn muscle was lots of swearing and putting ice on it (though in your case kinda ironic). That plus PTSD having a field day? That's #*@/&%#~@*.

Btw, it's scientifically proven that swearing out loud alleviates pain. Releases adrenaline and dopamine, son't remember why though.

Hope it'll get better soon.

mujicaptsd 01/30/2016

Neo, that's ironic indeed. You made me snort my beverage out my hose laughing. Ha! Thanks for that. I needed it.

Ice. OK. I have one of those ice bags from the drugstore in the freezer. Will do.

Yeah, the cussing helps. I gave up the cigarettes, alcohol, sex, and now even PTSD meds with the kidney thing, so cussing it is. And you're right about what the studies say: it's helping. That and hair washing, which is totally logical, right?

Ice. Irony. Still laughing. That was a good one. Love your sense of humor, Neo.

freedom15g 01/30/2016

hope you feel better Muj

mujicaptsd 01/30/2016

Thanks, free!

LuckyEmpath 01/30/2016

Ok...I know you are in pain and for that I am very sorry.. but reading all your 'swears' actually gave me a chuckle. Why? Because I have an image in my mind of this big guy who has a passive personality swearing at the tops of his lungs, silently in writing. It hit my funny bone.

I believe there is a metaphysical reason for everything and pain is energy that is stuck in the body. Heat is anger. So....If you are swearing in anger then you are releasing the anger and therefore releasing the stuck energy. Keep yelling and swearing. Get the anger out. Punch a pillow if you can. I'd say kick but I don't think that would be wise right now...of course.

mujicaptsd 01/30/2016

It IS funny, too. And I do look exactly the way you're picturing me, too.

Plus--you're right: it's working for my pain! It really is.

Thanks for the encouragement to let the heat energy OUT, Lucky.

jewells1 01/30/2016

Blast away Muji,.I have torn my hamstring before , but I was slightly younger, but still very painful.
Hugs and talk yourself to the shores of Uruguay for Carnavale.
CBT for pain has shown some benefits, I really wish I could swing time backwards.

mujicaptsd 01/30/2016

Yeah, Carnaval, jewells! Right!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqBwkoMua60

jewells1 01/30/2016

When my leg broke I rolled around the house pushing with just my good leg to get around. I kept a bag of potatoes by the kitchen door. If I needed any thing I through one at my nephews side door to get his attention.
Mashed potatoes for three months.

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