YES!!!

I was referred for day therapy in a psych ward to treat Borderline Personality Disorder. I know I don't have that disorder but it seemed the only avenue to treat anxiety and depression (to accept a wrong diagnosis). I was so scared I would end up 'broken' permanently after this confrontational treatment.

I ended up refusing the treatment because I was scared it would destroy any sense of self I had.

Not so much afraid that I will lose myself...but rather that I LOST myself. But yeah, I didn't really know who I was or who I am. But I do know that the old me is gone....and that is scary beyond belief!

It's probably much less of a problem than wanting to get rid of yourself. I've experienced both problems.

We lose ourselves a little each day as our experience adds to our knowledge. We change, usually for the better.

As long as we have a memory, we can't totally lose ourselves. It's not likely we will ever fully know ourselves either, because we only truly know who we are in specific situations, based on how we react at the time.

However, we can fully own our choices and intentions. Those things tell us a lot about ourselves.

At our deepest level of being, we already are, and have the potential to express those characteristics that we most admire.

Spiritriver-you put that so well.

It's what i wanted to say, but would have done it badly--thanks-vangie

Yes and I am so afraid of who I will become and what I might do