People do not understand the severity and hopelessness of complex ptsd.
I have not found or talked to another person whose nervous was completely upside down, totally out of our control.
My healing skills are formidable. My therapist tried multiple therapies and I searched out alternative healers
Intuitive, cranial sacral therapy, and many others.
I was a loner and shunned sharing my trauma to strangers.
One of my biggest symptoms was not trusting people.
I found meditation through acceptance and commitment therapy
My dads abuse built incredible willpower and the ability to endure physical pain at my dads hands.
I meditated five hours a day for five years without missing a day. The rest of the day was spent reading and applying what I learned
It took five years then life was better not perfect by any means
I had a couple year period that seemed like euphoria
When Ptsd symptoms recede it feels like a miracle
It is not perfect and flare ups are part of life
Four months ago a long buried betrayal trauma that I could never endure exploded
My fight or flight mechanism does not fire for trauma anymore
Meditation focus on the breath dissipates cortisol and adrenaline and calms traumas scary parts
I learned to activate my parasympathetic nervous system with my breath, that is applying the brakes
Half the battle was over when I calmed my nervous system
You can learn to use the energy of all that cortisol and adrenaline to fuel workouts
I found no fear inside my adrenal stress response
Our thoughts add our fear
Now I am left with humiliation to my core with fight or flight not firing
I have found physical abuse much easier than public betrayal
All my skills will not remove this stain
Now I am suffering again after all the work I have devoted to healing
How much trauma has happened to me
How much more is in there
At 69 I have battle this since childhood
And new traumas keep arriving
So do not expect to heal quickly from serious childhood trauma
I ran a real mindfulness group
The number one people do not heal is their inability to take daily action
5% take action
Are you one of them?
i found this interesting.i have such a difficult time with deep breathing.My breath just gets so stuck no matter how hard i try.https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2019/04/190407144213.htm
hi! support groups are new to me so here goes nothing:my therapist told me to take an online test to determine whether i have symptoms of ptsd or not. i'm not diagnosed and i'm not trying to diagnose myself, but i went through a really emotionally traumatic relationship and still haven't figured out how to become a person again. it feels like he broke me down to the point of no return. i have...