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Hi,
I know that there is a special group here on DS for widows and widowers but I am afraid to post there.
My husband died in 2008 unexpectedly. He was 47 years old. We had been together for 5 years. He died 3 weeks before our first wedding anniversary. My world turned upside down and inside out.
I don't know how to say this. How to make it make sense. I am so ashamed of how I feel.
I hate him. All I can remember are the bad things. When I think of him I am usually disgusted. I remember his smell and I am repulsed. He doesn't deserve that.
I did try a bereavement group sometime within the first year of his death but when I shared a little bit of my feelings the others in the group were horrified.
The bereavement groups I have seen are all about missing the one who died. About longing for them. I don't know what to do with my feelings.
I know that there is a special group here on DS for widows and widowers but I am afraid to post there.
My husband died in 2008 unexpectedly. He was 47 years old. We had been together for 5 years. He died 3 weeks before our first wedding anniversary. My world turned upside down and inside out.
I don't know how to say this. How to make it make sense. I am so ashamed of how I feel.
I hate him. All I can remember are the bad things. When I think of him I am usually disgusted. I remember his smell and I am repulsed. He doesn't deserve that.
I did try a bereavement group sometime within the first year of his death but when I shared a little bit of my feelings the others in the group were horrified.
The bereavement groups I have seen are all about missing the one who died. About longing for them. I don't know what to do with my feelings.
My husband and I had some issues and there were times he was emotionally abusive but maybe it was just run o the mill douchbaggery but yes...definitely some unresolved issues but that is another thread.
Hope you get some sleep soon.