I talked to him on the phone and he was being all nice saying he needs to get money so he can take care of me, being all nice. Then we hung up and a coupld minutes later he called back, arguing w/ me a little. He says that i can't tell him what to do and that he will stop calling me names when he is ready because he is frustrated right now. And that if he stops now I will already know what it will be like later on...or something weird like that. He says he can tell me what to do but I can't tell him what to do ( i dont know if he was trying to be funny or serious). He thinks he can just stop calling me names whenever it good for him. I see myself trying to reel him back in all the time then once I do, its like i try to throw him back or something, cuz i know i won't be happy. But the other part of me doesnt want to give up on trying to be happy. Idk what im doing! its just so weird w/out him... i dont know who to be or where to start w/ my life. But it's bad that he has to stop calling me names when its the right time for him right?? If he really wanted me to be happy he would do it now?!
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