A  little over a year ago I was in a really rough spot. I was in a relationship where he didn't care about my emotional well being where he only mattered. He would control every aspect of my life. I had to leave all my friends behind I wasn't allowed to go out unless he approved of it. He would always put me down and judge me for what I would wear. It was a mentally and verbally terrible but he always said I would never find happiness and I would always be alone. I finally left and it is always in the back of my mind the things he said. I did find love after all he said and I found out what real love is and he's been building me back up. He encourages me to go out and make new friends and go out to dinner and go live my life but it's always in the back of my mind that my ex is going to find me and just judge me all over again. After I left his whole family turned on me and was texting me saying that I was a *explicit* and that I needed to stay away but I had moved and left all that behind. I had to change everything my hair the way I dress even my phone number. I thought that I had gotten rid of all the negative in my life but it was like it was still haunting me and trying to find the way back into my life to keep tearing me down.