Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
hello my name is jade, well i know for sure that i have bben emotionally and verbally abused by my mother. due to some mind breaking drama in school with a my support system I had to go to the hospital. the doctors and theripst there then reviled that it was abuse. after the hospital I moved in with my dad to get away from it. I thought is was over finally i was able to be me.
I WAS WRONG
my dad, grandparents, step mom, 2 older step brothers, and even my half brother.
they have their own way of doing thing...all the adults bring up my weight consetly, they bring down my selfesteam, they make me feel wothless, helpless, trash etc. now it's multiple people! everyday is a struggle. somedays are calm and fun and others they just yell at me and when i lash out (cause i do have other problems because of these, one is auditory and visual hallucinations) cause on those some days I've been non stop seeing and hearing shit! mind you now that my family knows that i do have mental problems they just tell me "it's in the past get over it!"
But yet they wanna continue this cycle??? they contanly trigger me to the point of suicidal thoughts where my siblings come in are are just not helping me calm down. no they wanna call me crazy, tell me i'll burn in hell or tell me no one cares along with slurs (I'm pansexual, and a trans boy)
my question is....what did I do wrong??
Is there any adult that you trust enough to share this with who might be able to help you find some resources in your area?
Something else you can do to prepare for turning legal age is to make a plan to get out as soon as you can. If you don't already have one, get a part time job and save your money. Study hard and do well in school. Do some volunteering. Some employers still pay attention to these things. If you plan on going to college, research financial aid resources that include housing. When having to live in a toxic environment, you might have to do that research at the library instead of at home.
I hope you are able to find some resources, including a qualified therapist. You might start by calling the suicide hotline https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ DV hotline. http://www.thehotline.org/ to find some resources in your local area. (these are just two of many links to various helpline sites) You might also research national groups that support various genders to see what resources may be close to you.
One thing you can do is to come up with some positive affirmations to say to yourself when the toxic ppl in your life are putting you down. For example, if they call you stupid. You can silently say to yourself, I am smart. When they say you are helpless, you say silently to yourself, I am powerful. When they say you are worthless, you say silently to yourself, I am worthy and deserving of unconditional love. Our brains cannot handle two opposing thoughts at the same time. So just keep saying those affirmations (and any positive ones you come up with) to yourself all the time. It really helps to look in the mirror, directly into your own eyes, while saying them. (Don't be surprised if you start tearing up. That's normal.) Oh, and one more positive affirmation. I am perfect, just the way I am!
~healing hugs~