Because you are human....
you see the good in people no matter what!... You seem to be the kind of person who will not forget about a good deed even if that good deed comes from the same person who hurt you... you love them for the good in them while at the same time hating the bad in them.. ( this is in reference to your ex)
As for our parents... a child does not stop loving their parents because they should... that is a bond from birth
or because they abuse them. Will a mother stop loving her son if he kills her husband?..... "no" a mother's love is a mother''s love and a child's love for their parents is just that... " love"

In time you will learn to accept that it is not you loving them that is "wrong" it is allowing the love that you feel for them to put you in a place you are not happy being in

So you might have to love them with a long handle spoon (smile)

Remember! EVERYONE YOU LOVE AND EVERYONE WHO LOVE YOU ISN'T ALWAYS THE BEST PERSON FOR YOU

I hate it. I hate being the victim and letting myself continue to be even when I'm away from it all. What's worse, is as soon as the school year is over, I have to go back to his house. I'm stuck. I don't know what to do to get away and I fear for my safety and that of my daughter as well. She'll be 2 1/2 by the time we have to go back there. She's starting to pick up on the fact that he hurts me, even though she's never seen it. I don't want her to be in that kind of home, but I keep getting put back there. We've been in foster homes before, but we keep getting sent back to his house.

then don't go... you have a daugher to think about... stand up for her I find that a parent will do for their child what they won't or can't do for them self.....

I was also in forster care and you must go to a teen shelter and tell them that the system keeps putting you and your child in danger

I tried that and I guess I need to get medical emancipation before I can do anything because I'm not "stable" enough to make medical choices myself and "need him to do it for me". This is according to our child custody services and the local teenage parent shelter. And the other one won't take us because I'm a guy.

what is your age?

then keep doing it!

I replied via message because it's easier for me to see when I have a reply.

Not sure if you got my messages, lol. I'm so confused. My head is very fuzzy because of my head/chest cold that I currently have. I plan to go back to the shelter as soon as I can. Right now we're both in safe places and so I can't prove he's a bad person if I'm not there for them to see it. Sometimes I want to video tape what he does to me, but I know if I do that he'll find out and it'll be bad.

A prayer for Gods Protection ( psalm 71-1-24)

I run to you , lord for protection. Don't disappoint me. You do what is right . so come to my rescue. Listen to my prayer and keep me safe. Be my mighty rock, "the place where i can always run for protection".save me by your command! You are my rock and my fortress.

Come and save me, Lord God from vicious and cruel and brutal enemies! i depend on you, from the day i was born.

You brought me safely through birth and i always praise you.

Many people think of me as something evil but you are my mighty protector and i praise and honor you all day long.

don't throw me aside when I am old when my strength is gone.
My enemies are plotting etc;

Dear heavenly father
please bless this person with understanding and the "know how'
and touch the heart of the parent who is hurting so then maybe this person can stop hurting the very person who love him most...
his child in Jesus name amen