yeah, I was going to say something about that..your craziness...

JUST KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!

I've been going through it too. That's why I haven't been on here as much. When I get to feeling bad, a lot of times I don't want to talk-I don't want anyone giving me advice..I just want to hole up.

For me, it's this horrible little flip flop of fear right inside my stomach.

I hate that feeling.

I start to worry over everything-the bills, welfare, my teeth, the way I parent my children, I need glasses, but don't do anything about it..don't know how to deal with my ex, ugh.

I think I'll just shut up now.

(((((((big fat hugs))))))))))))

we'll get through this!

it's not easy being away from our abusers.

but it's better than when we were with them!

For me, coming here was a saving grace for which I am eternally grateful. I think that we all 'recycle' our thoughts, feelings & emotions. It's part of the healing process. The great thing is that no matter how far we think we've slipped back, we never go back all the way. And each time we slip back less & less. I've been out 6 1/2 years & I can tell you it does get better and better and we recycle less and less.

Hugs!

Back in my addiction recovery days (11 years ago), I went to a lot of 12-Step meetings. I used to think the same thing...."Is this just keeping me from living?" Then I realized, like you, that it was keeping me sane when I needed it most.

We have those ups and downs, we have setbacks. We'd have them here or alone....so we might as well be here!

Hugs!

Gogo,

Your replies to my posts have helped me sooooo much!!! You are such an inspiration to me....really. Getting over abuse does put your emotions on a rollercoaster. I know how that goes!! Hang in there girl!! You are awesome!! I think since you had recent contact with your ex he brought your mood down a bit...but you will be fine;-)

Definitely not a dumb thought. In fact, it's probably a very intelligent thought. Yes, coming here will make you think about your past, something that you want to get over and wish you could forget about. But the reality is, you come here BECAUSE you can't get over it yet. If we could snap our fingers and magically forget about our emotions, none of us would be here. And if we pretend we can snap our fingers and simply move on, all we do is bury our problem until next time. And don't forget, helping and offering advice to others is the most rewarding part of healing.

AWWWE Giz!!! You are sooooooo NORMAL!!!!! And good to review what you do every day. But I think if anything, for most of us, this place got us UN-STUCK.....allowed us to safely see the patterns of our lives that have not served us well. Helped us find a new way a new path. It's happenin' girl!!! And it's all good.....

BIG HUGS....